The way to Shangri-La - for my beloved cat Tommy

On 1st October 2010 I had decided for active euthanasia for Tommy Lee in the animal hospital. This painting "The way to Shangri-La" was finished around 1 week before and in love with Tommy and during a despaired search for heal. I was afraid that things would develope this way. When you look at his eyes at 1:21 & 3:02 or 4:09 etc. you see that Tommy is at the end but he wanted to stay because he knew that I need his love to can live. I found for a very short time hope in contacting homeopathists until his last day. So I wanted to stop the chemotherapie because of his thyroid hyperfunction. But on that day I've met this decision for active euthanasia because he had much water in his lungs despite of the dewatering pills and his totally dewatered body. How I can live further when I have killed my unborn son?

Original description: "The way to Shangri-La" painting is the sequel of the unfinished "Tree of Life" project with sticks in my mind. This painting is dedicated to my beloved cat Tommy Lee Jones who suffers from a Thyroid Hyperfunction, so we both fight for his life. Tommy Lee cannot cope the Felimazole-pills & the didn't help really. There would be a very prospective alternative called the radioiodine therapy which would need only 1 injection but in my country it's simply impossible for Tommy Lee & myself to use it because we had to travel 500 or 700 miles and Tommy Lee would be isolated up to 2 weeks. If anybody can help us please get in contact with me.

Category:

Pets & Animals

Tags:

• artfantasies
• ArtFantasies
• feline
• cat
• Katze
• Kater
• tomcat
• Tommy
• Lee
• Jones
• Painting
• Shangri-La
• Tree
• of
• Life
• paradise
• spiritual
• enchanting
• music
• mean
• kitty
• Thyroid
• Hyperfunction
• radioiodine
• therapy
• for
• cats
• Überfunktion
• Schilddrüse
• Katzen
• Yoga
• Entspannung
• Malen
• Malerei
• Paradies
• Baum
• des
• Lebens
• kitten
• cute
• kittens
• Felidae
• Meow

[morningmayan]

That is a beautiful painting!!!  You are so very talented. I am sorry about your cat:(

[artfantasies]

@morningmayan

Thank you, I'm glad you like the painting. Blessings to you over the wide ocean, whatever you do, wherever you are.

[AAR112008]

@artfantasies --- he did not want to see me how he would die I guess --- I also think so. Our pets are always around us when they feel that we are sad or ill. But in the nature, an ill or dying animal often leave his/her herd/family - to recover or die alone. Our little dogs also retreat when they don't feel good, although they usually don't like being alone: instinct is coming through in such situations... There are things in life we cannot change: no one lives forever. Good night, dear friend.

[artfantasies]

@AAR112008

Thank you, my dear heart, ... your words are helping me to deal with my self-reproaches.

What I never mentioned is that 2 weeks before his first breakdown in health he wanted to leave me but then, seeing that I searched for him the whole night he came back in the morning hours of a rainy night. Then as I carried & escorted him outside in the 1st 2 weeks after his break down he wanted to leave me ... because he did not want to see me how he would die I guess.

[AAR112008]

@artfantasies --- I did it to rescue him not to suffocate miserably. --- You did right, even if it sounds terrible to hear (or for me to say). I can only speak for me but if I were so ill and had such problems as you described Tommy Lee had, I would appreciate (if I cannot do it alone) if somebody "release" me. It's a hard step to take and a hard way to go, because even knowing/feeling we helped, we cannot forget and always ask us "was wäre wenn". I feel with you ♥

[artfantasies]

7th part

When he would be drowned that would have lead to extreme pain over hours for him. I saw it one month before it was terrible. The doctor said that also without any water in his lungs he would have had to live a maximum of some month because of the thyroid hyperfunction & his heart muscle. ... I have to live with the pain in me because I decided for active euthanasia ... I did it to rescue him not to suffocate miserably.

[artfantasies]

6th part

... when you watch the vid and see him lying under the bed at 4:06 this was his condition over the last week of his life. The radiography at the end was so bad as the one of 1 month before despite of the dewatering pills. And we had the problem with his heart. The pills against the thyroid hyperfunction couldn't help because the muscle was totally hardened. Tommy sufferd every week at the animal hospital when we was there. ... to be continued

[artfantasies]

5th part

... he needed 2 injections to sleep in before the deadly one. The whole time he looked at me, tried to say I will fight I will get it. So I have killed the one who loved me, how can I live with that? 14 1/2 years we had so much adventures. One time he attacked the big gun dog of the neighbour because he thought that this dog has bitten me, etc. Look at his story in the vid "happy birthday Tommy Lee Jones" ... I'm hoping that he still loves me when we will meet us again some day.

[artfantasies]

4th part

... but also when I would give him the injections probably I would be there in 2 weeks again. What should I have done? ... give him over 2 weeks injections to suffer more and more? ... So I went out to the toilette to drink some water, came back and there was another doctor. She also knew Tommy and was shocked as she saw the radiography. ... As I was with Tommy he knew what we talked about, he always did. ... to be continued

[artfantasies]

3rd part

We discussed what possibilities we would have. He said that even when I will stop the pills against the thyroid hyperfunction and give him homeopatic pills for his heart, which was more than double sized because of the life long thyroid hyperfunction, we permanent would have to give him injections against the water because the pills were not strong enough. ... to be continued

[superantonella63]

@artfantasies Oh, now I understand! Horrible death... I'm very sorry, but I'm near you with my heart! So Penny says a "comforter-meow" to you...

[artfantasies]

2nd part

... would suffocated over the weekend. Futhermore he stopped to eat and sometimes because of the pills there came blood out of his throat. I drove to the animal hospital and claimed for another doctor which rescued Tommy 3 times before. He knew about it because I phoned him. He checked Tommy & said that he is totally dewatered. But after the radiography he showed me that Tommy's lungs were full of water. He just breathed with a little part on the hinder right side ... to be continued.

[artfantasies]

@superantonella63

Not voluntarely, I was urged to prefent that he would drowned by the water in his lungs. 1 month before he almost would be suffocated. In that night we drove to the animal hospital they gave him injections to dewater ... & then the pills against the thyroid hyperfunction. I didn't know that they were a kind of chemo. As I heard it I contacted some homeopaths. Meanwhile his conditon was really bad. I knew that despite of the dewatering pills he ... to be continued

[superantonella63]

@artfantasies Then you have voluntarily decided to kill Tommy with the active euthanasia? I'm not understand it...

[artfantasies]

@superantonella63

Thank you for your words. Until today I doubt if I did the right to chose for active euthanasia. I wanted to prefent that Tommy Lee would drown by the water in his lungs. I let channel Tommy Lee after his death and the man said that Tommy didn't know that he is already dead. I guess that was because of the active euthanasia. He also said that he is stil here with me and perhaps he will wait for me as long as our connection stays strong. So I'm counting my days.

[superantonella63]

Tommy Lee was a beautiful special cat! Now he is looking you over the Raimbow... I understand your pain!

[MorganOthelloLFee]

Things happen that we can not understand and accept.

Sometimes we understand only much later, the why

[artfantasies]

@Temya9

Yes, some say that we could be uplifted into the 5th dimension in the shift which happens in end 2012. I hope so, when time is fading away things will be better for all of us.

[Temya9]

Must be strong and real, dear soul! We are not this body!

[artfantasies]

@Temya9

That's my only hope. Every day I go to the place where I've burried Tommy, every night I light the candles for him. Unfotunately I probably have a long time to live before I will be freed from 3D to can search for him.

[Temya9]

It's very possible - we will meet our pets (and our all beloved) on an another level again, and you will, dear one.@artfantasies 

[Temya9]

Watch my video about my cat Zuco ... I died and was born again in this my love, in present... really . The same color, same nature, the same love between Zuco and me... He came, because I was so sad and unhappy when he died first time . And when was born again - he recognized me, I recognized him...

[DennisOnshaw]

Time heals... when we lost our dog of 13 1/2 years... it took me more than a yr to regain myself... take care...

5 months later, I adopted a cat (Max) though it was not the same, it started to ease the lost, then 10 months later adopted Cleo, things wasn't the same as we missed previous dog....we still miss dear ol Shen (black cocker spaniel).

Take care...

[artfantasies]

@DennisOnshaw

I'm longing for the moment where I can be dead to meet him again or to be simply canceled so I don't have to live with my pain any longer.

[DennisOnshaw]

I keep hearing Tommy...so sad....