State of mind [BPD]

This is an extract of one of my "episodes" with borderline Personality Disorder.

Note- You may need to turn up your volume after the titles.

& I have dyslexia- Sorry about the spelling mistakes.

May 08

Category:

People & Blogs

Tags:

• Borderline
• Personality
• Disorder
• Mental
• health
• BPD
• Phycotic
• mind

[shawnielee1976]

I know you are sick...and suffer from a real illness...but this makes me ill just watching this. "State of mind" is important...go outside...be grateful for WHAT you DO HAVE.

[justagirl166]

@shawnielee1976 Its all well and good saying that, but when you have mental health problems you have tunnel vision. Each day is a million wars in my head, it blows.

[jns1234ify]

hilarious. if we all sat at our computer desk with unwashed hair, an expertly cynical expression on our face playing grudgey alternative pop music with a cigarette, we would we depressed too... that aside, great performance!!!!

[justagirl166]

@jns1234ify Your a bell end do you know that!

[aubrey84]

i want to show u some love and support this reminds me of myself all i do is listen to music i dont kno if its helping or hurting but its my thing and how i self medicate.i jus want u to kno u not alone. and i want to ask u what are u doing to feel better?

[justagirl166]

@aubrey84 Thank you. I am going to thrapy, taking my medication, trying hard to emerge myself in things I love. I'm going to collage, looking after my house and being productive, and attepting to target my bad behaviours. x

[vOoNneE]

I haven't been diagnosed with anything nor will I diagnose myself, but it makes me feel a bit better to know that I'm not the only one who stares at nothing at all and spends hours feeling like shit and empty at the same time. Sometimes I just feel too fucking tired to cry.

Thank you for putting this up.

[sarwatfamily]

@jns1234ify

Good Job ;)

[jns1234ify]

I'm sorry for the rude comment I left earlier. It was hypocritical because I called YOU cynical, when that comment was more cynical than anything you did in that video! Sorry :/

[sarwatfamily]

Well, I believe YES, you are right...but the problem with BPD's is that, we WANT to stay like this..its like..you dont go closer to a burning stove as you know you will burn yourself..but people with BPD are like....ok I will burn myself but I dont know how to stop my hand which is going closer to the stove.

I tried to explain my point by this example of a burning stove. Our mood swings and kinda like a burning stove and we dont know how to stop them. We arenormal but its just a state of mind

[justagirl166]

@Whitelight928 UK x

[craftgrrl14]

I've been suspecting for awhile now that I might have BPD. I have episodes extremely similar to what you show in this video along with a lot of the other symptoms of BPD. Thank you for your excellent videos and I hope you are feeling better :)

[lovegreenjade]

I feel for you, I really do.

My very best friend suffers with BPD and I know and see how she feels,

She`s always saying why are we her friends.

We tell her, because we love her.

X

[LittleBlueStar13]

@jns1234ify that not nice. you have no idea what its like to have BPD or Depression. its not just a cynical look we have on our faces, we literally zone out and cant actually see anything positive AT ALL. its not funny and its not nice, we cant move, we cant think straight we cant breathe. all we can do is just be and trust me thats bad enough. BPD makes u lose frnds alienate "lovers" fail at school and watch every1 else evolve and be happy whilst your stuck in the same place without a choice.

[kassandramd]

I have bpd so I understand how you felt, but seven minutes of your facial expressions in front of a computer does not make such a great video, maybe shortening it or talking would help? Idk. oh and great legs, missy, you don't need diet pills. Marylin Monroe is my beauty icon, not Vogue. Good luck!

[karacigerkelebegi]

i have a friend she has bdp and she looks like bella in twilight. like this girl :) ahhaha

[anaxgoth]

I can relate so much to this it's scary. I have BPD too. and I constantly just stare off into space. I'm really glad that you're in a better place. and Jack Off Jill is an amazing band. <3

[hab123]

yup that is depression

[arcanebeauty]

@little1777 My comment isn't contradicory at all.(maybe I should be more elliquent in my speech) I appreciate the context of the video, I just do not believe it is possible to produce a video like this without some form of acting....like I said, acting or not,...it's great that it raises awareness. Just it isnt all that convincing at the times you would expect it to be :) still better than mine though lol **always had a thumbs up from me**

[little1777]

@arcanebeauty this whole comment is really contradictory! you think its great shes showing her real feelings... but it looks like acting? but you dont mean that in a bad way! because its good shes raising awareness... yet it doesnt feel real :S make your mind up!

[little1777]

@dhuuki0182 right so thats why the DSM specify NINE criteria and to be diagnosed you must have ANY FIVE at least?! We may all have "similar" symptoms but "similar" means "like" not "the same" get a dictionary! and stop judging people and putting them down until you have your facts straight! also, until you are brave enough to post a video like this, portaying your own BPD experience... take your opinions elsewhere!

[ddrky123]

great video. i can relate to how you are feeling. some times it fells like music is the only thing that can help you fell just a littel better.

[MsAgnosticatheist]

I hate to say this because it sounds insensitive, but i'm mentally ills too so. You've got this tragic beauty and I love watching your videos. You are very artistic and talented. You're expressions and mannerisms, i can really feel you and your mood. It's like you bring at the tragic beauty and pain of being a BPD at the same time.

[movadoband]

@disappear I can't very well tell society to eff off ya know, I like them haha.

[disappear]

@movadoband Who told you you're not allowed to have feelings? I'm not sure who you're hanging out with, but you should probably tell them to F**K off.

[erraticsnow]

What can I say? Watching your video was like seeing myself in a film. I am more or less the same way. Hope you recover soon. Wish you all the best and keep up your intellectual talent, dear :)