"Year of Grace", Breast Cancer poem by Sonya Rose

"Year of Grace", A Breast Cancer Poem


I sit here—

Dreaming for things to naturally fall into its place.
Staring into my living space, so weak I appear.
Can't keep up the pace—
Of the human race, a well-established career;
I feel so out of place.
I look back at the years, a memory trace of an old frontier.
See the rough bumps, the crinkly pattern in an emerald green depression vase...
In my changing face, I feel a new tear.
If only I could embrace—
The colors of the wind in its breathing space (all-clear)
If only I could swim with the ocean and reappear—
Like a pearl in its hiding place...
If only I could jump on the next cloud and disappear—
Fly to a higher place.
If only I could touch the sun and give more cheer—
Not burn up in deep space.
If only I could walk on the moon (from here)—
Write that song I hear play from its imaginary place.

If only I could play bass... and drink some fine dark beer—
On and on and on, in a parking space
With no cars, just a gathering space—to give ear;
A meeting place, a change of pace

For anyone who needs breathing place, a life peer.
Like me, this is my visual place.
Some say it's a prisoner's base, to draw nearer
To a lower place; to interlace...
Others say its part of an obstacle race, never to interfere
With a higher space,
And now my dog at my feet, who I hold dear,
Just wants me to cut to the chase.
All I know, it's still all unclear...
But, to be sincere,
I could never fight this (cancer) alone, without fear—
Not without Love or my heart in the right place;
And, especially, not without—Grace.




Description: 2011 is my Year of Grace. Through a vivid dream, I was led to receive proper healing. I was warned to get my breasts thoroughly checked. After ultrasound/MRI-biopsies, I was diagnosed: stage 2 ILC (Invasive Lobular Carcinoma), LCIS & DCIS, grade 3, node-positive. Following a lumpectomy, 8 cycles of chemo, deep in September, I had a bilateral total skin-sparring mastectomy with immediate reconstruction. In just one year, my risk dropped from 85% to 35% to 17.5% of cancer recurring. As, I am continuing my hormone therapy for the next five years, I have adopted even healthier ways of living, a greener lifestyle. I am learning more on what it means to be a BRCA mutation carrier, with a 50% chance plus 1% higher every year of hereditary ovarian cancer... and other cancers (pancreatic, malignant melanoma, subgroup of lymphomas and leukemia). Also, what I must do to further overcome my underlying condition of Chronic Lyme Disease.

I've been blessed through the miracle of more than just one dream (as my cancer went under the radar of GYN/self-breast exams and mammograms for over 8 long years, since age 31)... through excellent care of doctors and nurses, family and friends, my fiancée, my sweet Sonny... through the power of God's angels on Earth and in Heaven. Through those faces that I've seen in my dreams before I've met them...




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Women's Health Magazine, featured:
http://www.womenshealthmag.com/health/breast-cancer-survivors


Images: iPhone video clips from my Breast Cancer journey 2011

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[Nigelcf]

Lovely poem. Get well soon :) xx

[sonyarose8]

@Nigelcf Thanks for the good well wishes! Wishing you lots of inspiration this year~

[TheBRockerNYC]

Beautiful. Great message: with Grace comes Healing.

[sonyarose8]

@TheBRockerNYC Thanks. It just came naturally...

[akkuboddu]

You have such a cute smile Sonya. I wish you speedy recovery

[sonyarose8]

@akkuboddu I like the sound of that... *smiles*

[franquesadamata]

Hello! I hope you recover soon.Bye.

[thenrylee]

Saw your vid title and I immeriately thought of the Stan Rogers tune with the line, "It was in the spring this year of grace, with new life pushing though". So I wish you the best with your new life of being cancer free. I'm no expert, but I will mention it just in case you are unaware. You might look into the Gerson therapy just to maintain good health. It can't hurt. Bless you.

[Nigelcf]

@sonyarose8 Thanks so much Sonya. I hope you're blessed with both health and inspiration in 2012!

[sonyarose8]

@DukeofWild I look forward to that! If I were to sing, then, the category would have been labeled "comedy"-:) My heart's with you & your sis. Wishing the both of you--a good year.

[sonyarose8]

@wallstripper Hey, Jules, what a surprise! How are you? Well, cancer's a tough teacher. And, I pray to God that I don't fail the class!-:) I hope to be like Betty Ford in her battle, always so confident & courageous; survived almost 40 yrs since her surgery. Of course, everyone's journey is different, yet all of us seem to connect on this common ground. It's a very humbling experience. Happy New Year btw! Love ya, too! Wishing you good health, prosperity, happiness, & fulfillment~

[sonyarose8]

@YOPC3 So kind and thoughtful! God bless you~

[YOPC3]

May God put more smiles on your face.