I tried to end my life

Rate & Subscribe to my channel! Jan. 14 2007 (Part 2!!!)

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"Nobody fucking cares what you have to say" .either, ooooooo but btw thanks for the comment!!! NOBODY cares what YOU have to say either! *BIG SMILES* I LOVE getting comments from people who take time FOR ME!!!!!, thanks for wasting YOUR time to comment!! =D Yay!!!- Care to comment back? I can't wait & I'll look forward to hearing back to what you have to say. Which won't matter, I already have plans to laugh back at you. **REMEMBER- You took YOUR time to comment how stupid I was, or how I am an attention seeker. GUESS WHAT??-So are you for commenting. =D Goodbye! Move on & get a life. I'm living my life by expressing how I feel. WOw, what a life you have for leaving pointless comments.

Please watch my first half of this story at: http://youtube.com/watch?v=NCEuV0qIFvY

Comment nasty or ignorant comments will be deleted. I won't even bother to reply to such childish BS from people who needs to act their age & not like a 3rd grader. Death threats will be deleted & reported.

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Since I don't have a cam I had to do it this way thru movie maker, I hope to get my webcam working onto this computer.

*MAY TRIGGER*

This is the best I could do for this subject.

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A year on January 14th I tried to kill myself. I didn't realize how important life was. Even though I still struggle with my mental illness, I keep trying & I want to let those who think they are alone...you are not alone! Seek help if you are feeling unsafe. Things in life can be better.

I'm planning on making a video to talk more about it, though its very tough right now. I'm glad to say that I am different & see life differently, which is a good thing.

Am I still alive because??? Why??

It was a January Sunday afternoon. I took off bc an (ex) friend's father said he'd put me over his knee and slap me. I got scared and I told someone. But no one believed me. I took off & cried, I felt stupid and bad. I took it a lot serious then anything else. This video explains a lil of what happened. Taking pills over and over...(it says 30 but I had taken more.)I didn't realize how serious it was...I was so close to death.

It still is a very scary thing for me to think or talk about. I have panic attacks & tons of fears while I was being treated & then in the ICU. Bad experiences.

The nurse did tell me that I was going to die. I think he said that to scare me, bc he knew I changed my mind. You think I'll do that again? NO!!!! It's been 9 months & I am doing pretty well. :) Every time I am depressed I watch this & it makes me rethink. Also, when I know someone I know is feeling so bad that they want to die, I show them this. I should of died that night, I had every reason to be. It was my last chance to make things right & I am here bc of that. I still think about it everyday & every night. Still scares the hell out of me but that's a good thing eh?

Rochester, New York State. Shortsville NY, Wayne County, Ontario County, Monroe County, Western NY.

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[sskiller111]

The fact that you're alive should tell you something, God cares and has a plan for you! Keep having courage and LIVE!

[jesmalu]

@sskiller111 thank you :)

[mikefraz01]

do me a favor......and please just end it. this is the worst video on u tube and u probably have a miserable existence anyways. all I wanted was to youtube shwarzengger's "remember when I said i'd kill u last" and I got suckered into watching this crap. just kill yourself allready.. u clearly want to. ask yourself what u contribute to this world except crappy you tube videos. the answer...nothing.

[jesmalu]

Haha thanks but no thanks. I don't take advice from people who tell other people to end their life. How low can a person be to tell someone to kill themselves? If you don't like it, then don't watch! But you took time to comment me so I feel special =P

[thenik1225]

last christmas my husbads brother killed himself...he had just moved back to america frome england 2 week earlyer and we were going to get a house together he wanted to reconect with his brother and get to know our son...on christmas eve we got a call from the hospital and they said that we need to come in..they dident say what happened we just thought he got hurt..nope..he killed himself...we were so angry at him...we still are....suicide is selfish...there are people who care out there

[jojoker4321]

im 13 .. i was adopted by my cousins at age 3 ... i hav crooked teeth. people laugh at me ...make fron.. of me. my cousins that i live with treat me bad . and my aunts and ucles..i truly belive nobody cares about me in this world... every day i think to myself saying.. im gonna kill myself..

[jbearden]

Glad you're here. Keep trying!!

[mr13karrot]

I know how you feel. Though I'm still planning on it. No one that I know knows.

[DOCTORDANification]

Couldn't you pop a couple TITS up on the screen? It's bad enough your tags are total downers :( With upbeat tags like: dead puppy, incubator ward, grandma's funeral, nobody is going to with a smile on their face, ALL HARSH! p.s. is that the music from "The Lion King"?

[mrkuul]

@mrkuul what the fuck!?

[mrkuul]

@mrkuul WHAT THEFUCK?!?!? i didnt write this who the fuck was on my account writing this bullshit?!!

[sjwo12344321]

sometimes u just want to break down and give up you get tired of lifes shit and dnt want anything any more but for it to all end,, that was me today, i was gonna slice my wrist open,,, but luckly i have beautiful friends and one who is very close to me talked to me, and we came to an understanding so i am un injured amd feel like a complete ass and idiot! lolz thnk god for good ppl and friends <3 ty A.O and U. M and all my other ppl i love you all!!!!!! thank you God for saving lifes

[madmanninc]

A dear friend of mine killed hisself and I understand why but this goes to any who want to consider it you are worth more to those around you than you will ever know! Even if it's not your family every1 has a friend wether u think it or not. Talk to the one u trust most about it and then I suppose yes if its still the best thing then by all means its your life. My BIGGEST warning is(from experience) Do NOT enter into suicide pacts, 1 of you'll chicken out and regret it forever!