The road trip out of denial

The title says it all! A trip out of denial. But it was not just my own denial. I watched and experienced many miracles in my short life. I write about it and bring it up all the time through my videos.

My being diagnosed with bone cancer and given 3 to 18 months to live. God touching ..healing me.

My eight year old son suddenly in a wheelchair. Believing he will never walk again and the surgery itself could kill him. Now no longer in a wheelchair.

My youngest existing at all after being told I could not have children. Getting pregnant and being told that I should consider abortion. To the day of her birth when she was breech and in trouble. After fifteen minutes of prayer she turned completely around even though the doctor told me it was impossible. That she has been delivering babies for 35 years and the child could not turn around. I insisted she do an ultra sound and she lectured me on the law and how I could be in trouble if something were to happen to this child. Nicole's head was down and I had her within a half hour of that doctors lecture.

My now x husband watched and observed and still it seemed he was unmoved on the matters of God and His role in our lives. If left today for my x to describe me he will call me a nut case for my beliefs even after watching these things first hand. So my road trip out of denial was in part coming to realize the relationship was toxic. Even the neglect of a man who through this road trip I would come to realize did not know what love is let alone capable of extending it to me. It was also a road trip accepting his denial of a God in whom done great things in his midst. Still refusing to a bow a knee in gratefullness and love.

By this video and my choice of song one might conclude that I left my x husband. That not being the case. My x filed for divorce and even in that I asked him to hold off until we had time. He did not and soon my children and I were wisked off into a rollercoaster ride of emotions and pain. During that divorce if you were to tell me that I would ultimately lose many family members and ultimately my church I would never have believed it. How soon those who watched all these miracles unfold were siding on behalf of a man who has since done great harm to our children by way of gross neglect and a poor role model. My journey did not come without great cost to my three children. But it was not something I could prevent. My response so often has been praying for their dad and extending forgivness and mercy and in that the children found a place of stability and strength. They too sayw that I and we deserved better. Enjoy!

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[living4dlord1983]

This video was great. I felt like I was there. Great job!

[andudarius]

amazing this clip.