Abby reads Carter's break-up letter

ER season 10 "Dear Abby"
The letter said this:

Dear Abby:

By the time you read this letter, Luka should be safe in America and you will probably be wondering why I'm not with him. Before you go blaming yourself let me just say, it's not you, it's me - and I know even as I write this that you're going to think that's a breakup cliché, but if you could just try and hold back your judgment - and your condemnation - for a minute, maybe you will actually be able to understand what I'm trying to say. Being here has changed me in ways I never imagined. It put everything in perspective. County, Gamma's death, you. Well, me and you. We just had to work so hard at everything. Too hard, you know? When I think back on our last year together, everything appears hazy, muddled. And in the Congo, everything is very clear. People are suffering. I can help them. They need me. In a way that you don't.

You're much stronger than you think. You don't need me, Abby, and I don't think you ever really did. We both know we would work better unfettered. I think that at one point you convinced yourself that I was the right guy for you - reliable and safe, and I don't know, stable - but I don't think that that's what you really want. When we were just friends, it was safe. Maybe we even put each other on pedestals, I don't know. And then when we were finally together, it didn't become what either of us thought it would be. I didn't end up being what you expected, and you didn't end up beingsorry, I'm rambling.

I gave you as much as I could, but it wasn't enough. Clearly, there were a lot of things going on in your life that were more important, understandably. Eric's disease, your mother. Your life is complicated, and I didn't fit into that mix very well, did I? I tried to help, but then when I needed youI don't know.

The light is dying. I don't want to waste any more kerosene.

I don't know how long I'm going to end up staying here. Don't wait for me.

I also want to say thank you. You are still one of the most amazing people I know.

Love,
Carter

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• lockhart
• maura
• tierney

[nibornna]

how the heck did you know what that letter said? did you just make that up???

[KateTastic]

lol no I didn't make it up, back when this episode first aired the contents of the letter were on the NBC site :)

[Kwcov]

hmm i want to hear her like reading it or John writing it or something!

[jet7111]

how did you get the content of this letter?

[fluffyraykatie]

did Frank read the letter after he picked it up?:D

[sparkie43]

This was the point where i really started to hate Carter. They completely ruined him in the last couple of seasons he was there... Started to wish he had died in the stabbing and the whole Africa thing was just BORING!!! Loved him wit Abby tho!!

[xfilia0bj]

Interesting letter - does sound like Carter - I never knew exactly what it said. But they did have to try too hard. They were better friends than lovers. As much as I love Carter I began to hate him when he was with Abby. He treated her like she wasn't good enough, like she was some broken toy he had to fix. It wasn't fair to her and it just ticked her off. How can you be with someone who thinks they're better than you?

[zeddfak]

Carter = Asshole. That letter was so condescending to Abby.

Such a shame, they had awesome chemistry.

[impasse0124]

Ah it's a shame because I loved them together...

[jorjasara]

i want to know too.....