Find Your Wings (my adoption story)

This has probably been one of the hardest things I've ever done. To lose your own child is hard enough without the fear of losing them twice! The fear you may say or do anything that may inflict further pain on an already wounded heart,well let's just say it can be crippling. Finding the strength to reach out, and in what way, has been extraordinarily difficult. I guess all I can do is put it in the hands of God.... and daughter, should you be reading this, please know I did this with only love that came from my heart....

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[sadeyes8nt4ever]

Just a note to anyone out there who has,or will leave a comment that needs responding to....My life can be crazy and I don't often have time for the computer. Please don't ever think I don't care...I always care! I appreciate, more than you know, when someone cares enough to see my story....and when someone shares a piece of theirs, it feels like you leave a piece of you w/ me! Thank you for that....I pray for each and every one of u <3

[LyricsSpkVolYOUms]

Beautiful. I am a birth mother who hand picked my daughters parents (open adoption) and have never missed a christmas gift or a birthday in her while 17 yrs. Her mother and I kept in touch through letters and pics several times a year, all the while forming a bond of our own.

Now 18 yrs later, high school grad is nearing...I can't believe I'm finally going to meet her, just as her mom and I planned!

Instead, I found out it was all a lie. 18 yrs of her placating me, hoping I'd go away...

[sadeyes8nt4ever]

@LyricsSpkVolYOUms (part 1) I'm SO sorry for yr heartache! I really feel 4 u... Mine was closed, but I lived w/ the family for awhile. They "wined and dined me", made promises of a future reunion. The mom became my "best friend" as I felt cast out/shut out from the world.... read on please

[sadeyes8nt4ever]

@LyricsSpkVolYOUms (part 2) 18yrs later, not only had she not kept her promises, but then told MY daughter to stay away from me?! Supposedly, I gave her the greatest gift in the world (she was/is to ME)! If she's not capable of saying thank u, shouldn't she ATLEAST respect her daughter enough not 2 make her feel torn?! I pray God will touch yr child's heart (as well as mine) and we can one day know the love of our children!

[devi7150]

I am an teenage adoptee the pain and suffering is very true. i was adopted when i was a baby along with my 2 year old brother. my brother and i was mentally abused growing up in our adopted family. i found my birth mother and my little brother a couple of months ago which brings happyness but yet sadness bc i see families all the time wishing it was me. my dad committed suicide when i was young which doesnt help either  i wish u the best

deviney b.

[sadeyes8nt4ever]

@devi7150 Yr story is so hard for me to respond 2...Yr situation was one of my worst fears when I "placed" my child! I'm so sorry u don't feel loved the way u want 2 b! I think u just may b loved more than yr willing (or able) to except. I'm not trying 2 down-play the way u feel, only uplift you. I don't know the people around u so I don't presume 2 know their hearts. Just please, know that EVERY family (even those without adoption) have their share of problems...we all feel empty at times

[upcycle]

@txkat123 I think sometimes people have psychological/emotional breaks.. (psychosis of sorts).. and perhaps sometimes it happens before a child is born and having nothing to do with the baby.. perhaps it is an example of one of the aspects of the human condition.. and fragility of spiritual/physical/mental health. It can also be seen in people with Alzheimer disease.

[asynkronos]

I hope you find your daughter. This is an endless nightmare for me and most of us. Americans are brainwashed about adoption. Most people can't begin to imagine our agony or the traumatic effects of this unholy, unnatural separation on us and our children. PTSD is one. No one can justify this. Adoption is legalized abuse. Most babies were taken from their real mothers by fraud and coercion. Google 'rickarby submission,' 'shotgun adoption' and 'schuster adoption corruption'.

[SuperKede]

I want you to know that I gained my son from adoption. And from all the adoptive mothers out there I want to say thank you for the gift you've given. You gave life to this amazing human, something we couldn't. I want you to know that they think about you every day, wonder about you, and pray for you. Only a mother's love could ever think of putting herself last and allowing her child to have a home and a life that she couldn't provide. You are the true meaning of the word Mom!

[annieblue3]

CARL R TRIPP HAS A DAUGHTER WHO WAS BORN SHANNA MARIE ELIZABETH TRIPP

ON 09/11/1978. HIS HEART CRIES OUT TO BE REUNITED WITH HER. SHE WAS SNATCHED FROM HER HOME AND HIS HEART AGAINST HIS WILL ON 11/1//1978 AND PLACED FOR ADOPTION IN

CHICAGO IL. PLEASE ANY INFORMATION IS GREATLY APPECAITED (SHANNA IN MY HEART 4-EVER)

Coolbreeze265@yahoo love DaD