Toast And Tea ~ Kai Williams - Original song about Social Phobia

Hello there everyone! This is quite a personal song ive wrote and am sharing with you all today. It's basically about the agoraphobia and social phobia I have suffered with for about the past six years. I was Actually totally house bound for a couple of the years. It's such a big part of me and has grinded my life to a near halt, ruining it thus far. The song is basically about being in that safe little bubble that is my house, watching daytime tv and getting attacked by kittens in my case! I tell myself im ok but really im not. Id love to venture out and live my life but my problems are stopping me.

It's something I don't feel easy talking about and never do with friends so it felt strangely good singing about it in this little song here but now very scary uploading it because a big chunk of me is being shared here hahaaha! Thank you for taking the time to listen. I really appreciate it :~)




~Lyrics~

Toast and tea
Love at three
Warm embraces and tough love
Mental state check ok
Ill return to my box

Ok im alright
Loose Women and kitten bites
Angel back in your box
Stay there

Morning darling
Facing the crowds with this mess of a face
Think ill stay in today

Toast and tea
Love at three
Warm embraces and tough love

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[SakiJune]

Here I am again XD I can totally understand you, really. I've been suffering these disorders since I was fourteen. After three years I've began taking meds, but in the meantime I had to quit high school. All I could do was writing, reading, listening to music and crying over myself.

I am almost thirty now and I feel a little better, but anxiety is still part of me.

About the line "facing the crowds with this mess of a face": your face is not a mess, you are absolutely beautiful. And gifted.

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@SakiJune I was 14 when my troubles really escalated as well. I left school and like you listened to music.. Made the mistake of not doing any reading or writing. I was in what felt like this safe little bubble for many years although it was extremely suffocating & damaging.

Thank you soo much SakiJune. You've made me soo happy. Ive always had very low self esteem because of how others have treated me. That line in the song relates to how I felt at my worst moments.

[Samblix]

Great song Kai. Next time you want to talk, I'm here. I know I'm a drag queen but I can listen. X

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@Samblix Thank you dear Sam!! x

[singingkid]

Absolutely brilliant, Kai! 5 stars, and favourited! :)

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@singingkid Thank you soo much Greg :~)

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@otacon7522 Thank you Cara! It was kinda scary sharing this but my subscribers are soo lovely I know they wouldnt judge or mind haha :~) You are soo kind to me, thank you Cara!!

[DIVAKaiWilliams]

@splicer45 Songwriting is what ive always wanted to do. For the longest time, I felt hopeless and that id never be able to write songs because id left it too late but thanks to your encouragment and others, im actually doing it now!

Thank you soo, soo much Splicer! It's true what you say. Music is such an easy way to face demons. I found it such a release writing this song. If I didnt have my problems then I wouldnt have my passion for song and music now.