I wanted to die

Please rate & comment on this video. Jan. 14 2007 (Part1)

Note: Video comments are disabled due to certain people who have nothing else better to do besides be stupid. I'm disabling them bc I do not want to waste my time deleting those stupid ones. I have better things to do besides read dumb comments.

Death threats will be deleted & reported & LAUGHED at!

"Nobody fucking cares what you have to say" .either, ooooooo but btw thanks for the comment!!! NOBODY cares what YOU have to say either! *BIG SMILES* I LOVE getting comments from people who take time FOR ME!!!!!, thanks for wasting YOUR time to comment!! =D Yay!!!- Care to comment back? I can't wait & I'll look forward to hearing back to what you have to say. Which won't matter, I already have plans to laugh back at you. **REMEMBER- You took YOUR time to comment how stupid I was, or how I am an attention seeker. GUESS WHAT??-So are you for commenting. =D Goodbye! Move on & get a liufe. I'm living my life by expressing how I feel. WOw, what a life you have for leaving pointless comments.

A year on January 14th I tried to kill myself. I didn't realize how important life was. Even though I still struggle with my mental illness, I keep trying & I want to let those who think they are alone...you are not alone! Seek help if you are feeling unsafe. Things in life can be better.

I'm planning on making a video to talk more about it, though its very tough right now. I'm glad to say that I am different & see life differently, which is a good thing.

Am I still alive because??? Why??

It was a January Sunday afternoon. I took off bc an (ex) friend's father said he'd put me over his knee and slap me. I got scared and I told someone. But no one believed me. I took off & cried, I felt stupid and bad. I took it a lot serious then anything else. This video explains a lil of what happened. Taking pills over and over...(it says 30 but I had taken more.)I didn't realize how serious it was...I was so close to death.

It still is a very scary thing for me to think or talk about. I have panic attacks & tons of fears while I was being treated & then in the ICU. Bad experiences.

The nurse did tell me that I was going to die. I think he said that to scare me, bc he knew I changed my mind. You think I'll do that again? NO!!!! It's been 9 months & I am doing pretty well. :) Every time I am depressed I watch this & it makes me rethink. Also, when I know someone I know is feeling so bad that they want to die, I show them this. I should of died that night, I had every reason to be. It was my last chance to make things right & I am here bc of that. I still think about it everyday & every night. Still scares the hell out of me but that's a good thing eh?

Rochester, New York State. Shortsville NY, Wayne County, Ontario County, Monroe County, Western NY.

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