Courtney Love reading Kurt Cobain's suicide note

I added the words because she's hard to understand through her sobs. Here's the FULL suicide note transcript;

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Empathy! Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy. Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney, for Frances. For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

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[chica10987654321]

YOU'RE A FUCKER AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[TheMichasousa]

im sorry but, i don't know how to like Courtney Love

[allyytebow15]

The things that all of you need to understand about their relationship is nothing. None of you judgmental assholes know how their life really was. They could have hated each other to end or simply cherished everything each one of them had, you just don't know. So stop fighting about how she calls him "fucker" and "asshole" and realize that you know nothing and its none of your fucking business to know. Those words could of simply been what she called him everyday. Rest in Paradise Kurt Cobain <3

[LillyKay0x]

@LindseyNicole0314 I agree with you to some point, and you and i both know she loved him dearly, i hardly think she actually thinks that about kurt. she was just hurt that the man she loved, the man who had her child, and the man who was standing there by her side while she had that child, the man she was married to, would leave her just so carelessly. It's a natural response to such a great man just being taken away so brutally and so quickly.

[LillyKay0x]

I lasted up to 0:10 seconds before bursting into tears.

[LindseyNicole0314]

Listen, I've lost someone to suicide and yes it is selfish and yes I was angry. But NEVER will I EVER call him such names!To me that is such a disrespectful way to remember someone! Kurt had issues and acknowledged them. He wasn't happy. He took the wrong way out. But he was sick&had been since a young age. Suicide is always deeper than you know. But you can't just call someone you love so much a fucker, an asshole, & everything else she's called him.They may be selfish, but you don't have to be

[SimplyShaded]

I don't blame Courtney for being mad at Kurt! suicide is a very selfish thing and anyone who does it is pretty selfish in my book. No offense to Kurt or any nirvana fans who find this offensive but if someone I loved committed suicide then of course I would be mad at that person. I would never commit suicide because I know it would drive my family and friends crazy. Suicide is selfish and is never the answer to anything!

[TheEpicWeezl]

i dont care for courtney love i dont like her music or how she acts. she calls kurt an asshole and a bastard while she read this note, and i noticed many people posting comments are getting upset at her for saying those things. To me i don't believe she means it. I mean she basically says she doesnt mean it when she says she sleep with his mother and sometimes she wakes up and thinks its him. all im saying is don't get upset this is how alot of people act when they lose someone close to suicide.

[LindseyNicole0314]

I understand that Courtney is mad that Kurt is gone, but the way she talks about him is so damn disrespectful! Through all their shit he's always said nice things about her, and he called her a freaking Goddess in the letter, and she wants everyone she read it to to call him an asshole?! Way to be a good wife. She didn't deserve Kurt. Ever. A person whose had problems since a young age that he couldn't control isn't an asshole, he's just sick and took the wrong way out.

[emotwin65]

Why:"""""(

[FlexiiMcLexii]

I honestly don't know whether to like this video or not.

[cristinita231]

Oh dear mother fucker if you hear me i'm crying idiota, WHY THE FUCK DID U GO?? Oh whatever i dont give a shit i'll GO to hear your music and cry Bye.l.