How long will this darkness and confusion last?

talking again... looking for help from your heart? thanks for listening

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• 2012
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[mechanesthesia]

Oh, and you're cute too. :)

But yeah, being gay is tough in high school. You're still figuring out who you are against the barrage of preconceived notions of identity that is shown to us by the media and others. Even if it's not directly related to those issues, you already get the sense of being an "outsider" and start to question things. You will be very proud of yourself looking back, compared to drones who never question anything in their life, marry, shop, have kids, and die.

[neptuniumforest]

@mechanesthesia Thanks for the comment :] Yeah its really tough right now. Allllloooottt of fucking bullshit. I also can have symptoms of depersonalization disorder. prolly dont know what that is. Its bad for m to spend too much time alone...

[11CosmicJoker11]

Shit, this grabbed my heart man. fill your cup up while weening off (although i admit i'd try just not taking any and see how i went compare to feelings before and moniter changes acknoledge risks i'd try anyway). Meaning write everything down, what makes you feel fulfilled, hobbies you wanna learn (for me i'm getting guitar tomorrow), read inspiring books chat with inspiring people.

[neptuniumforest]

@11CosmicJoker11 No no no no i cannot go cold turkey. that would just be a stupid idea. But youre right about doing actions rather than just flat thinking.

[11CosmicJoker11]

@neptuniumforest was NOT suggesting that bro, all the best i mean it, i'm about if you ever feel like chatting, sharing ideas ect

[neptuniumforest]

@11CosmicJoker11 I think i recall your name... chatting would be cool maybe sometime. skype?

[mechanesthesia]

Wow. Well, one thing is if you want to get off the meds DO NOT do it on your own. You can get nasty withdrawal symptoms and it has to be a slow process. Also, everyone is depressed when they're in high school. By your 20's you pretty much get over it. It seems like you are still in "searching" mode as a philosopher. You will eventually figure it all out and have a healthy sense of cynicism to everything that will temper your emotions.

[Powerofpeace64]

@neptuniumforest tptb= the powers that be.

All of that fear is created and therefore not real.

Its been implanted in your mind through media and society. There is always someone telling us we aren't good enough or that we don't messure up to the accepted "normal", so we always fear we'll fail. Just be true to yourself.

I really hope everything works out for you. Best of luck.

[11CosmicJoker11]

@neptuniumforest yea sweet, i'll download it now :-)

[neptuniumforest]

@Powerofpeace64 True but easier said than done... And what is tptb? ...There is subconscious elements to me. ABSTRACT fears that I cannot yet grasp consciously, and they are runing my life. When im happy they say im not allowed. Im tryin to get better...so i am