Mako's Vlog Day #39

My attempt at keeping a running Vlog going on my YouTube Channel. Comment or send me Questions via my inbox. Song: "Autumn Leaves" by ATB.

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[CyberNeonChrist]

Wait, you'll answer our questions? O .o wait, does this one count? does that one count too?!

[MakoDap]

@CyberNeonChrist You just filled up your daily QUE Cyber :) j/k I will answer questions. I just really wasn't in the mood that day :(

[CyberNeonChrist]

@MakoDap But, i heard from her friends that if i would deny her, she would cut her self every day until she finally goes out with me, so i went out with her. The relationship is stale, and boring but i always try to fake in a laugh and a smile so that she doesnt find out how i trully feel. I really dont know what to do because the girl i actually like is showing alotta signs that she wants to hook up. Sure my Gf is cute and everything but her personality is like a rock, plz tell me what 2 do T-T

[MakoDap]

@CyberNeonChrist Wow. Are you positive your GF has or is cutting herself? Does she have marks or scars? Her friends could be leading you on if not. Trust me... I've had this experience before. The one thing that might emotional hurt her more than breaking up with her... is cheating on her. That could end up having even worse results. Trust me. I know. Girls need positive reassurance about themselves. Having someone cheat on you... blows that out of the water. (con't)

[MakoDap]

@MakoDap I assume you just wanna be friends? If so and you think she's emotionally distraught, you should seek professional help. Go to your school counselor. Ask for advice or assistance. Don't put that all on yourself. She needs help to insure she'll have a happy/longer life. Make sure others are watching her and helping as well. Say it's better for both of you if you remain friends, and you can help her through this. Being in a relationship to mask her issues - is not the solution.

[pianoandpage]

i SO know what you mean. feeling vulnerable is both a wonderful emotion and (for me at least) extremely terrifying at time. i find that as a girl, i'm way more open with my feelings, thoughts, and insecurities. as a guy i'm way more quiet and introspective. of course those characteristics aren't mutually exclusive to gender but for the most part...

i think we do have a lot in common actually. can we expect a new vlog from you soon?

[MakoDap]

@pianoandpage I think you're spot on there. I do feel more compelled to be up front and express myself as a girl than I ever was a guy. I wonder why that is?

[CyberNeonChrist]

@MakoDap Coolies c: Ok, so, here it goes. Im going out with this cute little sophmore, but i dun think she's into the whole sex thing, and i dont wanna be the guy that takes her innocence away because ill feel a little bad. So, what im doing is.. um.. having other affairs with other girls so that i can blow off some steam, just to take the temptation away from having sex with my Gf. But before you call me a jerk, let me explain... She is like a sister and at first i didnt wanna go out with her-

[MakoDap]

@pianoandpage Awwwww... thanx for the lovely comment :) I think you and I have a lot in common... that way for sure. I feel like I can really dig deep and feel empathy for both men and women now. I can see so many strengths. Weaknesses. Men and woman's brains are wired differently. They just are. But now I am understanding the obstacles women have to deal with more than ever now. And I feel that vulnerability too. In some ways... women have to have a thicker skin than men to get by.

[pianoandpage]

@mako ever since i've come to realize that i identify as both male and female (sometimes more one than the other) i have gained a lot more empathy for women's rights and also disappointment in men who ascribe to stereotypes. i definitely think you are going though an extraordinary journey mako and i can't wait to see what is next for you. also, you are beautiful!