and you almost wish...

... i miss my boy :,( im not the same without him

since my last video Ditto has been sold.. i just thought i should update my few subscribers on that. I have since left the barn i was at and joined a new one. I love love love my new barn, but its tough going from practically owning a horse for two years, being able to go out every single day a ride, to going to only going out once a week for an hour lesson on different horses every time. I'm becoming a much better rider. Mentally everything is just so effed up right now. I am slowly losing motivation. I'm trying so hard to get better, but its such a slow process only riding once a week. I'm hoping to find a horse to lease or a project horse starting in the summer, after IEA ends. I feel like him being sold hasn't sunk in. I feel like im waiting around for him to come back. Im hoping and praying that he does something dumb... and maybe his owners wont like him anymore and give him back again... but i know this probably will never happen, because he's a well behaved young man now.... gahhhh why did i train him so well ;,( lol . i know he remembers me still.... i saw him at a schooling show a few weeks back.. and he couldn't take his little eyes off me.

I hate when family relationships put a strain on everything... maybe if my parents would act civil and agree over something for my benefit and not worry about "who is paying more" or "who is winning" i would have him right now... and i dont care no matter how long it takes.... i will wait for him.. even if i only get the retired years of him. i love him more than life itself, and i honestly don't know how im coping. Good thing i dont have much feeling left anymore.

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[robg123100]

Rachael I feel for you this always happens a person gets tired of their horse and give it back to the seller just hope for the best I will let u know if anything happens

[63485]

@robg123100 no need, i am still close with everyone else at the barn, they would let me be the first to know... thanks though. and its Rachel..

[taylorluvshorses16]

@robg123100 oh ok, He's still gorgeous though. :)

[robg123100]

@taylorluvshorses16 it is not her horse he was her lease and then he was sold to someone

[Gaaspen2]

OMG this is amazing :D :D :D you need more subbers :DD im going to make you a promo :D

[taylorluvshorses16]

Omg this is amazing!!! I love it! You're horse is gorgeous!