Mazzy star look on down from the bridge (Roxannes Heart 3)

Hearts desire 3
my feet are heavy..like anchored to the floor..i move to the left side around the left pillar..so i can see..see her face to face as i approach..shes illuminated by the fire light.. even more beautiful as the details become clear with every slow step..she wears a silver braclett on her right wrist with two dangling silver hearts attached..its warm here I can now make out the details of her earrings..white gold strands with a star on each end..
i remember..My heart starts to pound a little quicker as my eyes start to tear up again..but the temperature isnt to blame this time..she smiles even more..and reaches even further for my hand..while letting out a little laugh and softly says...."baby,come here"....tears..as tears fill her brown eyes........."baby....come....here" i cant stop staring at her...taking in every detail..every beautiful detail..God this is all i want in this life..this right here..just her..with me..nothing more..a completely simple wish but..the heavy..my steps are becoming..im so close..i cant..please dont..her hand is there..we are almost..her eyes..her smile..smile An avalanche of darkness cascades onto me..i am now looking at a void of blackness.. her warm smile is no longer there..her hand that i desperately reached for,is gone..her perfume has vanished..the pain in my chest has amplified.. Hot..i wake up hot..in a sweat..my face buried in my pillow..badly dehydrated..eyes crusty..grasping an empty beer bottle..my head aches..hair a wreck ...got to get up...got to..God my head hurts..go to work..when i finally sit up in my bed i get a glimps of what i did the night before.... every morning,a different surprise....good lord..im a mess..jeans down around my ankles in what looks like a failed attempt to remove them..one shoe still on...bits of pizza stuck to odd places of my body...buried in a sea of empty beer bottles...and wtf is that?....nevermind... i sit at the end of my bed with my head in my hands..thoughts of her and my hangover competing to be the dominant force in my head......i remember her face her perfume....i got to see her once more..even with the absence of her pictures she still watermarked in my mind..her imprint on my soul...i still see her..my dreams...dreams....WHAT the FUCK?!..god damn it..these dreams are created to remind me of what could never be?... stale artic world i live in...give you a taste of what you truely desire than pull it out from under you...crap...how much longer?..how much more of this do i have to go threw..sheesh...just another one to jolt down on scrape paper to add to the many in the dream jornal later... ive got to have a moment before i attempt to navigate threw the carnage of my apartment....God i cant keep doing this..uhg..like i havent said that before..i cant stop to think now..there always seems to be plenty of time to think....i have to get moving before the sun comes out..otherwise the drive to work will be seen threw welders goggles.....Pacing at seventyfive mph to work...everyday has become routine in my tunnel vision threw life...the numbness intensifies with each passing day...didnt get enough numbness yesterday..could you layer on an extra coat today..a walking coma..shellshocked..another casualtie of a broken fucking heart...an aspirin..shower..and a burrito powered by an exhausted will and drive gets me to work everyday...to stare at a blank monitor for hours..thinking of her..always thinking of her....Wrap up the day with a bag of peanuts..four totinos pizzas(one gets eaten..sorta)the other three disappear off the face of the planet..a gallon of water and two twelve packs of my favourite lager....thinking..maybe..she aint gunna get me..i can drown her out tonight..yeah thats it...ill round up all my generals to hammer out the details of my battle plan..and all it takes to tip my fortified fortress of iron,fire and steel is one tiny thing that reminds me of her.... then..im on the battlefield..alone..thinking..shit..this one is gunna hurt....she stands before me,reminding me:..."you cant forget me..i have something that belongs to you..i pulled it from your chest years ago..you will never forget me...i will always be there..to remind you what we could have had together..if you werent such a fuck up"....and im trying to get a message back to her..BABY!..god damn it..baby..please..PLEASE hear me now...there are no words any human being on the planet can put together to discribe how i feel for you..the feelings run to deep..beyond words....

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Sa ressemble à "Asleep From Day" de Chemical Bothers...

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Don't give up your day job yet!

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@Cranae haha!

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@neti015 Who taught you how to write?

[Cranae]

Says what I wanted to say.