Eddie Cooney - Almost

Almost

Time is wasting,
You reminisce,
Could have been beautiful could be a chance you miss,
Almost forever,
I almost fly,
I almost told the truth by telling you a lie,
Looking for answers at the point where new questions begin.

Chorus
Almost sunshine,
Almost rain,
Almost loved and lost and never loved again,
Almost leaving,
Almost grieving
for almost everything when nothing is enough,
And that's not love,

I'd been driving
for hours and hours
past the houses, the fields and the flowers,
to the river,
I crossed a bridge,
Looked at the door of the house where you lived,
Looking for answers at the point where new questions begin.

There's enough for you now,
There's nowhere better than now,
You keep yourself guessing
by never counting your blessings,
Looking for answers at the point where new questions begin.

I wrote this song after travelling to a funeral in Germany. The funeral was for my uncle Franz who only weeks before I'd visited on his deathbed. At the time of writing the song I was feeling sad and depressed but on a holiday in Spain I'd decided to make changes to my life when we got home. When we returned from the holiday we heard the news that my uncle had died and my plans had to be put aside for a short while. I didn't want to travel to the funeral on my own but none of my family or brothers and sisters wanted to go with me so I made the journey alone.

Funerals have a way of making you feel sadder than you already are and it wasn't a good trip for me. Funerals also make you think about how you've lived your life and about your own mortality. I was already dwelling on regrets in my life and on memories of those regrets; things I've done that I'm not proud of, potential in my life that I haven't reached and all these things went through my head on the drive. The motorways in Belgium are usually very busy and I found myself unable to cope with the traffic. I began to cry a little and decided to drive through the countryside instead. The road took me through parts of Belgium and northern France and was very beautiful. It lifted my heart a little but also made me feel melancholic in the way that pretty things sometimes can.

Funerals in Germany are sombre occasions. After the service we walked through my uncle's town, past all the places that were important to him, to old houses that he had lived in and places he had loved. I'd visited this town many times before but we went to places I'd never seen and I learnt things about my family I'd never previously known.

I don't believe people who say they don't have any regrets but sometimes dwelling on regrets is a waste of time. Sometimes falling into sadness takes you away from the love already in your life.

On the journey home from the funeral I played a new song, 'Rita Mir Zwei' by my favourite German band, Bap. It's a nostalgic song and easily made me cry again but I began to sing along and feel more positive. I thought about my wife, children, brothers, sisters and decided the love I have now is more important than the things I regretted. Regrets belong in the past and I decided to count my blessings, to concentrate on my love for my family, to try and be more true to myself and to change the way I lived my life for the better.

The power of music always amazes me and this week gave me an example of this. My son Kit learnt this song as part of a challenge week in school and on Monday night he played it live to a few hundred people. As sods law would have it he lost his voice a few days before the performance and had to sing falteringly with a sore throat. Nevertheless, it was a beautiful performance and my heart brimmed with pride for my son. This is a nice song for Kit to choose to learn. My uncle Franz loved him a lot and would be proud. This song comes from a time in my life when I tried to put sadness behind me and be happier; when I decided to forget about mistakes I'd made, about regrets I had and try to love my wife, children, brothers and sisters harder.

Category:

Music

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• Eddie
• Cooney
• Almost
• regret
• France
• Germany
• Kit
• Rita
• Mir
• Zwei

[Desirae564]

this is really beautiful :"(

awesome, words can't really explain how great this video is

[eddiemetall]

Thanks very much for your lovely comment. I'm really pleased that people like this song. Thanks for listening and greetings from across the sea.

[viviann00]

it's beautiful !

[eddiemetall]

Hey, thanks for your comment and greetings from England.

[wabbitywascal]

sound song eddy mate,how about putting solicit summer on here....????

[eddiemetall]

Thanks for the comment and request. Is that you, Ged? If not, who are you? 'Solicit Summer' has been on the myspace player and is on my 'Ask The Summer' ep. You are welcome to a copy. Just send me a message with your address.

Eddie

[Emanasse666]

It's a great song.

I do not speak English, but really I like this song...

Saludos

[maverick4876]

your really talented, lovely song. " looking for answers at the point where new questions begin!" excellent line...

[wabbitywascal]

Aye its me Ged from unsunny sunderland,yes I wouldnt mind a copy of y'ep...im glad youre keeping up the good work cos I hate to see talent go to waste.I'm working on a graphic novel myself.I had a sudden kick up the backside one Sunday afternoon and decided to get my Art materials out after a ten year break,I've emailed u my address for the e.p....cheers.

Hope to hear from u soon.

[eddiemetall]

Hey, Gracias y saludos de Inglaterra a Colombia.

Eduardo