schizoaffective psychoses

i have been going through alot of ishues in me.... its been 6 months sence i last had meds... all amotions all the time, and can be set off at any time.. im angry at my self for being so stupid and deprest because i cant help it! stress will destroy you...

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[tahot25]

hello, i want to thank every one whos watched my videos, for quite some time ive been with out meds and trying to figure out my self, wow never relized tell on meds how truly bad i realy was... i will do some more good videos to tell every one what its like in a better frame of mind.. i know its hard, i know times can become so ruff that you think death is the only out.. ive been in the worst situations done by my self and i know my story can help at least one person... thank you

[tahot25]

i have done alot and lost alot to realy try to want better for my self, this is it for me and i just want to share it with you so that others who deal with stuff can be better then i am, and lurn from there torments.. other wise, itll kill you... and im the result of that, i chuse to live this way hoping theres a reason for it, and in part feel i do deserve it, but also, this is me, and if you dont like it, o well, this dos suck and i dont want anyone elts in it but me to deal with this hell

[2088jesse]

Dude, everything you say about your sadness are symptoms of depression caused by schizoaffective disorder. I was in your same shoes. Goin from house to house, hearing stuff, seeing stuff, going from job to job, school to school. This is not who you are! I am schizoaffective depressed type. I have found the right meds and I have been out of the hospital for a year. I love life. I can't talk you into being happy, only you can do that. Medication is needed if you ever want to be content with life!

[tahot25]

im sad because of all ive done, im deprest, because ive lost everything ive ever loved.. yeah im sad! and ya its like a dagger in the heart! but regardless my illness is still the same, i will continue living this way, because i have no saport system and what friends i do have, i dont want to help me.. being alone is the best thing for me.. i dont hurt anyone, and no one hurts me..

[codergames]

You're a friggin WINNER man! The polluted environment is affecting our bodies including brain chemicals. You need to detox, read my other messages.

[codergames]

You must not stop taking meds cold turkey, you need to reduce, say if it was 30mg, you reduce to 20mg and take those for just about the same amount you were taking the full dosage and then reduce for another 10 or 5. Who the fuck told you to go dry on meds? Why reducing slowly? Well, because all the chemicals that were inhibited would spike otherwise. And pray, play to our Creator our Father a lot!!! We're influenced by polluted environment that is killing us, so we need to detox.

[schlachthauz]

Handsome guy! You could be an actor or a model. Have enough money to avoid being locked up.

[XyPunk77]

Don't give up man! I too have schizo-affective disorder and I still went to college and got not one, but two degrees. I have to suffer allot. I can't work, really. They keep firing me. But, I work for myself here and there working with computers and doing videos and composing music. I do have purpose. I do have meaning. I am good regardless of what people think.

[goodtwitch]

You might want to try simple breath counting meditation. I found that it helped me feel centered and deal with my chronic depression. Zen meditation called Zazen is good.

[opinioncentrul]

DO NOT GIVE UP. Change what behavior's you can, and there are some you can, if you Want to. Being Committed to therapy could help you, but you have to do it for a long time. Get in touch with a state/county agency who will provide therapy for free. I understand and empathize with everything you've said and there is always H-O-P-E. There is.

[TheAnonymous357]

I got this shit too... Stay strong buddy  You can message me anytime if you ever want to talk...

[jfletcher1989]

alright dude, im 22 and have schitzo effective disorder. glad you can talk openly about what you're actually thinking about. I've had psychoses a few times and my problem was I kept it all to myself which just made it a lot worse. I find when you say to yourself out loud what youre thinking and believing you find it easier to rationalise. Also, just try and remember the reality you lived in as a child and question thoghts always. hope this helps, James

[lynx234]

You have accomplished something good! You are helping ppl struggling to understand loved ones with this disorder. You are very brave in the face of all of this, it is impossible not to be moved by your videos. Maybe this is your true work.. I wish the best for you. You are so young, I hope a cure is developed. There is so much good in you.