My Anorexia Story

Just a little bit about me, and how I got to where I am.

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[Mikatopia01]

Hi..

I think I just seen an older version of me.. But I'm still grasping for my happy ending. I'm currently in hospital 7 hours from my home to 'attempt' to deal with c-PTSD and anorexia. I've been in for 12 days so far, but before now I was admitted for 10 months. I thought I had my miracle recovery when I got my horse.. Only to find myself back where I started only a few months later.

I'm proud of you.. I don't know you, but I am.

Keep strong, don't let this thing beat you! Xoxo

[PixieEleven]

@Mikatopia01 Thank you so much for your kind comments, I'm sorry you can relate so well though. Please feel feel to message me if you ever want to chat. Take care sweetheart. xoxox

[somanystories]

Hi hun.TY for sharing <3 ..I have a history w/ anorexia & just recently decided to share the story of my PTSD ..Maybe I am an example of someone w/ a video on Anorexia that starts w/ "I was a happy little girl" (possibly a video you've even seen before;) But I wanted to comment to write that I'm finding healing, & that I think the disorders were intertwined for me also. You seem so strong. I believe healthy relationships, more than time, will bring healing to you too. You deserve nothing less.

[PixieEleven]

@somanystories Thank you so much! Yes, I have seen your videos - I subscribed even. You also show a lot of strength and wisdom about yourself and the healing process - and I do relate to how intertwined the ptsd and eating disorder are. Much love xxx

[kuki1308]

Hey sweetie. I completely agree that the more people voice their stories, the greater the understanding will be! I'm so glad you're being brave enough to share your story, you could really help a lot of people! You're so beautul lovely, your eyes are STUNNING! I'm so sorry you have had such an awful past and such a terrible struggle with anorexia. It brakes my heart! But please, never give up on finding that happy ending! It's out there somewhere- its just hard to find the right answer!xo

[PixieEleven]

@kuki1308 Thank you so much for your comment. It really means a lot, I was shitting bricks about posting it up! I'm really loving your vids too - and watching them really gave me some courage to start posting a little more often - so stay tuned - I'll put up another one soon.

[PotterRickmantic]

I hope you get your happy ending. Thank you for being so honest and sharing such personal things about you and your life. I wish you all the best :)

[CaliCocoLove]

it really is embaressing to have an eating disorder...im only saying that cuz i struggle with mine on a daily bases still..its so hard...i wouldnt wish it upon my worst enemy...really i wouldnt...its pure torture and you are only hurting yourself...its so painful...a mind game that you cant win cuz its against you...or actually a monster that becomes you...but it really isnt yyou...fuckin bulimia...fuck fuck fuck...idk a nicer way to put it

[justagurl23]

it wasn't until after i started recovery that i realized even though the anorexia numbs the ptsd, it also makes a lot of trauma symptoms worse..with the brain not having enough nutrition, it stays in the kind of dissociated state or a state that is similar to when you have a flashback kind of (at least i found). they do work ''well" together in a bad way...which is why it's hard to get rid of the ED

[HappinessIsNow]

OMG! You are so right about starvation numbing you from PTSD. I'd never heard someone analyze it like this, but you are so right. 

[PixieEleven]

@IdoLoveStrawberries thank you so much! I don't FEEL very brave most of the time, but I guess that's what bravery is really - doing stuff despite being scared out of your nut! :) Working through all the shit is awful, but hope keeps you going. Hope that there will be a better day at the end of it.