ED Update

It's been a really HARD couple of days...the hardest being the last 12-24 hrs. I suppose the video really explains the jist of it.
1. I know it's not about the food OR the weight so PLEASE do NOT remind me. It's about the control that I do NOT have especially from my family amoungst many other variables.
2. There is a lot of anger within me that I am trying to channel into something better like talking. So I am talking with my Therapist daily for a bit.
3. I'm sorry if I offended and/or hurt anyone. I guess fear does that to people. People and Animals tend to lash out at those we care about most when we are scared.

So...again, I am sorry... I love you all and I pray that we all get the chance and the ability to heal one day.

Love Amy

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[sugarfreejello]

Amy, I hate to see you suffering so. I know you have the courage and strength to get through treatment. I have so much faith in you that you can get on the path to recovery and start working towards a life of freedom from this disease. I send you my thoughts, prayers and *hugs*. Take care.

[weaveamyweave08]

Thank you for the thoughts and prayers. I do really appreciate it. xo~a

[alicia0123]

Amy, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You ARE stronger and more brave than you give yourself credit for! I wish you could see it, I really do. I'll keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts. I believe that you can beat this! Hang in there...things WILL get better.

Alicia

[weaveamyweave08]

Alicia (HUGZ) Thank You...

[MusicallyPoetic52]

Amy, I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time, but I agree with Elisa - you ARE brave and much stronger than you have ever given yourself credit for. You say that there's only one way out, and there is: treatment. I'm praying for you as always. Keep your head up, and don't let your fears get the best of you.

Lina

[weaveamyweave08]

Thank you Lina. I will try...but fear is all I have at the moment. (It's hard to see past it......)

[blucoat]

I know you are afraid. It makes sense to be so afraid. I would feel the same way. I think that this is one of those times where you can't wait for the fear to go away. You just have to have courage and go despite the fear (much easier said than done).

I'm glad you have a supportive therapist who really "gets it".

Stay brave.

[weaveamyweave08]

Elisa, Thank you. I don't agree...right now. Hopefully one day though....maybe one day I will be able to say that you are right. xo~a

[weaveamyweave08]

Thank you Tom. This means a lot to me.

[elisarecovery]

Amy,

I haven't been following your videos very long but I just wanted to let you know how much feel for you and how brave I think you are. You are so brave and I know you can do this. Yes, it's hard. But you're stronger than you think you are.

I'll be thinking about you.

Good luck.