2008: ART and the SECRET of MONEY

Art and the Secret of Money My experience with how money affected me as an artist.

Money influenced me as an artist.
For some time, i did not realize to the actual extent i was influenced by money within my expression as an artist. I believed that i was actually able to express myself free from the system, specifically here the money system.
However at this moment i look back at my experience as an artist and i see to what extent i was not free from the system, not free from the money system.
It affected me at every turn, every decision, every movement.
So let me look back at my development as an artist and explore the relationship/partnership i had with money and how money actually influenced me extensively as an artist in this world.
An artist of all occupations.
An artist, apparently free.
I choose to be an artist because i believed it was a free expression, because i believed that i would be free within this expression.
Or did i choose to be an artist because my fathers father did not have enough money for his son, my father,to get an education which in turn affected his income and therein influenced what type of education his children, myself included would have available. And thus i chose to study art.

So given the income of my family perhaps it was more suitable for me to take a liking to drawing at a young age - besides we did not have boxes of toys - we did have some, yes, but not overwhelmingly so that the paper and crayons were always within reach. I started to get serious about being an artist when i was about 16 years old. I enjoyed sports also but found myself many days after school sitting in my room drawing for hours. It was a cheap hobby. Paper and pencils and i was set. Paper and pencil still now 10 years later being the foundational application of my artistic practice - drawing, why? Its inexpensive, even if i have little money i usually can afford a sketch book and some drawing supplies. I Went to art school for 4 years and would you know it, i opted for a drawing major instead of painting. Drawing was much less expensive.

I applied for and received student loans to pay for my education.Of course i could not afford to go to school outside the country - to study in the places where the masters i saw in the books worked and lived. However i was fortunate enough to actually be granted money from my government and even go to school. In fact, when i was in school, i was rich! I spent most of my money on art supplies of all kinds focusing as mentioned on drawing. You could stick a 5 foot piece of paper to the wall at less than half the price it would cost to hang a painting of the same size - of course you could sell it for less than half as much as well - that is if the people with the money liked it. FUCK THAT!!! I didn't feel like making pictures for money. Oh, and i never sold many of of those either.


I applied for money from my government so i could focus solely on study while in school. I thought i would have 4 years to really get this then after that it was on my own so i better take this opportunity and use it effectively. So this is what i did. I worked diligently, on the art that is, i didn't care to much about anything else outside my studio. I did not even realize that during this time i was so passionately studying art, looking at the great artists of the past, studying their work, looking in books, reading art theory about beauty and form and of course FREEDOM ,that the very essence of my/this pursuit was/has been compromised from the very beginning. I was attempting to understand freedom, freedom of expression, what did this mean, i studied art for 4 years in school than another 3 after, all of this missing the point that everything i ever created was not free, was not freedom of expression was not self, expression not by any stretch of the imagination. Every painting i ever created, had an interesting ingredient within it. I had an invisible partner collaborating with me, side by side, i agreed to this. A partner i could not ignore, that i was forced to consider, that existed within every inch of my practice. It was money. Everything i ever painted was a product of money. Oh, and of course, make no mistake I still considered them all original, Artworks.

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[DavyJonesLumey]

Sounds familiar.

But it is not the truth. You mean: Federal Reserve Notes. Not money. Money is in silver, or anything else that has no inflation. Federal Reserve Notes are Counter Reformed tricks of Superstition. And it works.

I never figured out why most students at Art school where atheists. Painting for what? Rembrand however, would become a great painter, when the Sabbath was kept. He died poor, because the Sabbath was sabotaged again. Find out quick!

[ytemdege]

very touching, thanks.

[ABIYAH144]

Damn, I had this same money demon when making jewelry, thanks for insights.

-Deedra

[transformation1life]

thx for the inside look - very revealing stuff

[erictfrancis]

money has that effect on me too.