Here's to the past. (+ a small announcement.. kind of)

Hello fellow YouTubers.

As you may or may not have noticed, I've deleted the story I had previously begun to upload. I have my reasons why, and if you care enough to take the time to read those reasons, I hope you'll hear me out and understand where I'm coming from.

Life hasn't been easy. If you read the description in one of my videos from about a month or so back, you know why. So many emotions, so much swirling around in my head on a daily basis, and it's overwhelming. Sometimes this is a good thing, it inclines me to write. Most of the time though, it prevents me from doing just that. I'll have so much flooding my brain that it's hard to find the inspiration I need to write.

School starts in just a few days. I go back on the 7th, and basically the only thing I'm looking forward to is chorus, and seeing my friends. This year is probably the most important. Lots of testing, preparing for college, and all of that. I'll be extremely busy, more than ever, and unfortunately won't have the time to come online and post episodes. I doubt I'll have much time to get on the computer at all.

Lastly, it has come to my attention and observation that my views have greatly declined within the last year. I've lost the following I had before, and that's most likely due to the fact I've only been posting about a video a month. I deleted all of my Please Be Mine episodes, along with Just Friends, so the only things left on my channel are the videos I've uploaded. Before I would get about 50 views in one night, and have atleast 100 within the next few days, and now I hardly get 10 in one night. If hardly anybody is taking the time to view or comment on what I've taken the time to post, why should I waste my time in the first place? It's pretty obvious that hardly any of you care. There's only a few of you who consistently comment, and I appreciate the ones who do.

So, I'm sorry to say that I won't be posting anymore stories on YouTube. I won't give up writing obviously, but I'm not going to be posting what I write on here. I'll keep my stories to myself, which is sad because I loved sharing it with you guys. But it's something I have to do, and I hope you can understand that.

Comment, don't comment, I really don't care at this point. I have summer reading to finish and a life to live. I don't mean to sound harsh but I've wasted enough time on here, and will be using YouTube for its main purpose, to watch and favorite videos. However, you never know when a video will pop up so please, PLEASE don't unsubscribe. I can't stop you if that's what you decide, but it would be greatly appreciated if you didn't.

Well, that's all for now. If you want to have more contact with me, I'm usually on MSN for the most part everyday so... add me, if you want to talk.
alexagjbfan1214@hotmail.com

Love you all. Thanks for an amazing journey. You've grown up along with me these past few years, and it's been great. I thank each and every one of you who have read my stories, commented, subscribed, talked to me, made my day, and for those of you who have ever been influenced by my writing/videos or inspired by what I've done, I appreciate that as well. It means a lot to me, really. And I hope you'll all know that somehow, you've all been a part of my life, even if you've only commented once, even if you've never said one word to me. Not to mention you've supported me endlessly this whole time. When I wrote my first episode, I was a naive 14 year old with an immature, disgusting boyfriend about to enter high school, and now I'm a mature, much more serious 16 year old who is on the brink of the beginning of the rest of her life. You've watched it all happen. So for that, thank you, so much. God Bless you all.

As for the video itself, it's obviously very similar to my RIP World video. Not gonna say much about it, because there's only one other person who knows what it's truly about other than me, and that person might not ever even see this, so... yeah.

Song Used: Forgotten September by Two Steps From Hell
Dedicated to: Do I even have to say?

I love you.

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[KSJ032]

oh and the songs you picked for the videos are all on my ipod now. So thank you for introuducind me to some of those bands like westlife and others. Good luck with everything you do!-katie

[KSJ032]

i really loved the videos you posted in the past. I'm sorry i may not have commented or favorited them right away but your videos always stuck out from the rest. It was like we were right there in the middle of them, you have an amazing talent at writing and i hope you continue to write. You could definetly make a career out of it. I hope this year is one of your best because you deserve it. - katie :)

[KELR14]

I liked BIONTSR. I'm actually pretty upset you're discontinuing it.

But other than that, I know you're hurting. But life does go on. Don't be stuck in the past. Don't wait around for something that's not meant to be. Everything happens for a reason. What the reason is: you may not know now. You may never know. But there is reason behind it. Keep your chin up, and keep looking forward. Life isn't easy. But it gets better in the end. If it doesn't get better, it's not the end yet.

[SingPlayMusicLife]

You're actually quiting the postings...wow. I remember the first time I read please Be Mine, and to be honest, it is definitely my favorite. You portrayed them in ways that every girl has imagined and hoped for. You made this real for us, Alexa. I totally understand your reasons and I respect them. I hope all goes well with school and that your inspiration comes back to a point where you're popping out stories left and right. But don't think that I'm not going to quit Messenger :)

[buttonmoon1409]

i think i've commented on your videos before but i just wanted to say that i think it's sad that you're not going to continue making them but i agree that you should definitely live your own life and enjoy it whilst you can. i always love the music you use on your videos and i think the black and white style you use is beautiful. i wish you all the luck in the world with whatever you do in your life. thank you for sharing your videos :) francesca x