I'm a self-destructive idiot.

VERY TRIGGERING. Contains talk about graphic eating disorder behaviors, suicidality, and other such things.

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• eating disorders
• laxatives
• purging
• restricting
• ednos
• ed-nos
• suicidal ideation

[markdc2]

You are not hopeless. SMILE. You can do it!!! :)

You are not hopeless. Trust you TRUE self. Not the disorder.

Have respect for yourself! You can do it! :)

Nothing can change when you're unhappy. Go to the GYM, respect yourself. Stop this messing with the eating disorder. It's irrational. You are not thinking clearly.

Maybe you should look at how other people do things in life and copy them for a few minutes? Copy the fat person who eats all the time. They are still happy aren't they?

[shrinerspark]

@markdc2 I can't go to the gym... it is really not a good idea medically for me to do so right now. I don't have the strength, and my electrolytes and stuff probably wouldn't stay stable enough, over time. I got a medical note for my gym membership and ended it.

Of course I'm not thinking rationally... I have a fucking mental disorder!! And, well, don't you think I would copy someone like that if I was able to? Do you think I WANT to be miserable?

[markdc2]

@shrinerspark Is your physical medical condition so bad that you can't fix it? I think once you fix your biggest problem things should get better. What are your biggest insecurities? Do you feel like the worst person on the planet? It's not true. You are irrational.

[shrinerspark]

@markdc2 My condition is quite complex, and it would take far too much time to try and explain it all.

[markdc2]

@shrinerspark ok but you make a lot of effort to talk about stool softeners which is kinda pointless. Why not talk about your ACTUAL problems? not the ones brought about because of your depression?

[shrinerspark]

@markdc2 #1: I don't appreciate being criticized on my own channel.

#2: The whole point is that I can't explore my real problems because it makes me suicidal. I don't understand why you don't get this, since it seemed like you watched the video...

[LesPaul2006]

@markdc2 If you ever were REMOTELY depressed EVER in your life, you would know by heart that the last thing you tell a REALLY depressed person is "Smile, you can do it", or to stop thinking about the disorder because it's "irrational", not to mention the "EAT LIKE A FAT PERSON, BECAUSE THEY'RE HAPPY" part!! Man, what can I say...

[markdc2]

@LesPaul2006 whahahha and you know my life from one stupid paragraph? :)

[LesPaul2006]

@markdc2 You have so never been clinically depressed... My advice? Go down on your knees and be forever thankful for that. I mean it.

[lostlittlegurlygurl]

are u on mood stabilisers?ur in a manic phase of bipolar,u should go to the hospital?xxxx

[markdc2]

I watched half the video! :) Anyway I hope you can get some help soon =]