Where will our hearts go?

When I had started making this video, I was editing the way that I felt and my hopes that my dear friend (Sora) might come back for good someday... Sora and I (Riku) have known each other on and off for about seven years. I'm twenty one years old now... Seven years is a third of my life, that's a long time to know someone, to love someone. And I did love her, in every way that I could. She was my best friend. She was everything to me and more. I'd never cared so much about someone as I did for her. Sora was fragile. She used to get so upset over things. I wanted to protect her. I had this big sister kind of complex. I always wanted to make her smile. I would get so upset whenever something was hurting her - I'd always promise to make it go away, try my best to make her feel alright again, because when she wasn't happy, neither was I. When she cried I would cry too. When she smiled I was smiling too. Then she started leaving. Sora would leave me for months at a time - over a year at one point. Again and again she would crush me - because I needed her so badly. It may seem silly, but like I said before she was really all I had. I didn't make other friends. I didn't associate with other people. She was everything. When she left it was like she stole a little piece of me everytime. I would feel betrayed; hurt. I would feel like she didn't want me anymore. That she had better things to worry about. That I was useless, and that I meant nothing at all in her heart. Of course...She'd always come back, eventually. She'd come back and I would warily cast aside my doubts and take her in again, fall back into that familiar and happy step.Then she'd go again and leave me all alone. I think after a while I stopped believing in people. I began to believe that all things were temporary. What's the point of making friends and getting close to someone? In a year? Two? They'll be gone anyway, and you'll be all alone. Only this time you won't be able to find the 'you' you were before. It's like little pieces are missing. A chip here a crack there. And you're not like new anymore - you're just something someone threw away. That's how she made me feel when she was gone. I didn't make this video to hurt her. I didn't want to hurt her. Honestly I didn't even believe she was watching anymore.. She never trusted me. She never trusted me again in six years, and she believed what I say to be a lie. She said she should never have come back the first time and she was right. Over the years she's torn me apart. She might not believe It, but she can't feel what I feel. It might not seem like a big deal to her, but it was everything to me... I could never hate her. I'll always love her. She'll always have a special place within my heart that could never change. Nothing could change that. No matter what she said to me nothing could change, But I tell her how I really feel and all of a sudden 'what affection she had left for me' is gone. And I am better than that, Sora, if you're watching this now. I didn't love you because of the way you made me feel. If that were true I never would have become friends with you again so many times. I loved you for who you were no matter what you ever said or did. I still love you, even now. You never should have come back. Nothing will ever fill this void that I feel because you never trusted me anyway. You really believe I didn't actually love you? How can you say such things to me? Because I told you the truth? Don't come back again. Don't talk to me anymore. Keep all the pieces of me, I don't want them back, because I'm not the same little girl anymore, and I never will be. But don't you ever tell me that you didn't mean anything to me, or that all I ever said were lies. How could someone like me possibly care about someone like you? Don't kid yourself. Grow up Sora.

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[TheEnvyBlade]

I'll give U a strawberry if u told me the name of this song!! :)

[WickedKiss]

@TheEnvyBlade Illusions by VNV Nation

[FallenKeybladeMaster]

I gave this a thumbs down because it's yaoi, sorry.

[WickedKiss]

@FallenKeybladeMaster lol grats you're a total ignorant loser! Good job! And it's not Yaoi it's a friendship video - which means you're Illiteret o.ob

[FallenKeybladeMaster]

@WickedKiss Does calling me names make you feel better?... i just thought coz of axelsxflame's comment on this video it was yaoi, it's a great video there's no doubt but if its just a friendship video like you say it is then good job o_o

[WickedKiss]

@FallenKeybladeMaster I didn't say it to make myself feel better i have nothing to feel better about. You're a homophobic asshole and i want u away from me and all of my videos. if u are sub'd to me plz unsub. You're blocked now. kthx :3

[TheEnvyBlade]

Thumbs Up if they should make a kingdom hearts game on ps3 just based on Riku, meaning u play as him, and see his story!

[KingHeartsNarutoFan]

This is an amazing video, i can relate to the pain you must feel amazing job, congrats on making it and I hope one day Sora will see it.

[Rachel32299]

Love it, it makes me cry

[intheyasha]

Like OMMMMGGGG!!!!!! I am totally hype about this video. Like seriously, I went nuts after watching it because I had no one to show it to because I don't know any hard core yaoi fans like myself in real life, but I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS VIDEO AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!! I am reeaaally too hype right now. But this definitely made me really excited (especially with all of the editing) and kinda sad (because its sora's lost) but yeah... i'll stop the long message.

[isneezelightning]

I've seen this video... how many times now?

and yet i still cry every time I watch it.

beautiful editing

[TheEnvyBlade]

I watch this more than everyday I watch it ever secound I am on my laptop no lie! ^_^

[TheEnvyBlade]

@WickedKiss *Gives Strawberry* Thank You! ;)