"My name is Kevin and I'm an Ex Mormon"

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I became a Mormon zealot at the age of 19, while on an LDS mission. My own thoughts were subjugated to those of "the Brethren." I became convinced that the way to love God, myself and my fellow man was to follow the prophet faithfully and work hard to save the non-Mormons from their misery. I continued in this state until I hit a wall at age 33. I had been married for 10 years with 5 kids and one on the way. I was both a Ward Mission Leader and a Den Leader at the time. I was maxed out and miserable in just about every area of my life. My marriage was struggling, my relationship with my children was deteriorating, and financial pressures were mounting. I'd always been an avid temple goer, genealogy researcher, scripture reader, tithing payer, home teacher, family home evening holder and on and on. I lived the Mormon "Gospel." The peace of mind that the scriptures promised to the Believers, however, wasn't there and it was getting worse by the day.

I soon lost my desire to attend Church, but was far too committed and afraid to not. For several years I continued to live by Church teachings and pray that I would get my testimony back. Then one day the Stake President asked me to be the new High Counselor. "At last," I thought, "my prayers have been answered! While serving in this new calling I'll certainly regain my testimony." Serve I did, faithfully for the entire three year rotation. When I was released, however, it was clearer to me than ever that I and the Church were on two completely different wavelengths. I saw suffering throughout our Stake, people feeling alone, unloved and unsupported. I had worked to do something about it for years. This desire, however, didn't seem to be one that was shared by my fellow leaders. Our mandate was to preach obedience. From the reports the Stake President would give, upon returning from training meetings with Apostles and other General Authorities, it was obvious that preaching obedience was what they wanted as well. The mantra seemed to be, "If everyone would just follow the rules, everyone will be happy." Well, I did and I was miserable. My neighbors seemed pretty good at being obedient, as well, and they didn't seem too happy either.
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[RichardJordanBlack]

You guys leave the Church and Missionaries baptize more people month so there..The church is true all you anti-mormons are testimony that the church is true so keep fighting and bashing on the church I love it. You guys are hilarious you make me laugh

[iamanexmormon]

@RichardJordanBlack Hi Richard. I wish you the best my friend.

[EthanNin0]

@RichardJordanBlack You know what's really hilarious?

Kolob.

[TheUnsungOne]

@TheUnsungOne to again fill with energy and light. It's like when you see cars race, and one car drafts off anothers air wake. That space behind the car as it drives is basically an air "vacuum" where it takes a certain amount of time for that space to again fill with air after the car passes. The same thing happens with these particles, while energy and light take time (incredibly fast though it is) to again fill that space after the particle passes. This forms a quantum vacuum.

[TheUnsungOne]

@fmendozajc Well it's not likely that it happens to often, even in deep space, as even space is filled with energy (radioactive, lightwaves, ect). But before these lightwaves and radioacive energy (given off by stars), in other words, before our universe, this would have occured frequently. The reason we see this in the colliders is because, at near light speed, when a particle flies through space, it takes a certain amount of time for the space behind that particle (next post)

[justamusta]

@RichardJordanBlack You have your free agency. So do these people.

I'm Justa: Pro-truth Latter-day Saint.

[fmendozajc]

@TheUnsungOne you are correct, i was in a food coma when i responded, what i meant to ask or say, why does a quantum vacuum only occur in a Large Hadron Collider and Relativistic Heavy Ion Collider, shouldn't it occur in a non controlled environment. Like does a quantum vacuum naturally occur in space today? Or has it in recent recorded history?

[101mythbuster]

Sure, if I didn't have to worry about my personal responsibility towards God or about my personal salvation, I would be completely stress free as well. It's like they say, ignorance is bliss.

[TheUnsungOne]

@fmendozajc Sorry, my typing sometimes gets a bit jumbled. I meant "And furthermore, *you assume* that there needs to be a "why". That defies basic logic."

[TheUnsungOne]

@fmendozajc And furthermore, assume think that there needs to be a "why".  That defies basic logic.

[TheUnsungOne]

@fmendozajc This void forms when there is an incredibly low amount of energy. Which would occur when there is nothingness. Which means it virtually comes from nowhere and brings particles into existence. This is observed using both the Large Hadron Colliders and also the Relativistic Heavy Ion Collider.

[fmendozajc]

@TheUnsungOne alright you explained what a quantum vacuum is, i undersand that now, but that void, where does it come from, why is it there?

[TheUnsungOne]

@fmendozajc After re-reading my own writing I made a few mistakes. 1. Quantum vaccum is actualyl a low energy (zero-point field) quantum phenomena. 2. "phenomena which occor *at* very small levels".