It's Not An Argument

give me one give me two give me three give me four explanations for why this isn't working. you keep checking the clocks twerking as if we are running out of time. and i know im sounding like that girl who argues over nothing but this time it's serious, and i know i said that two weeks ago but this time im not delrious and i'm starting to get used to the excuses i'm starting to realize the marks on my heart are inflicted bruises. why? because i don't trust you, no i trust you it's them i don't trust, i know i'm backtracking as if we actually have something to discuss but maybe we do, maybe my insecurrities always becomes that annoying piece of gum stuck under your shoe. no matter how hard you try to avoid it it's bound to stick like glue and now i'm not making sense. but is it too immature for me as a woman to admit that i'm threatened? see we have a way of ignoring the things deep down, parading around like we are goddesses but deep down we disect every other woman in our presence, almost as if we are sizing up competition. she has a bigger ass than me, i have her beat on the smile, but this girl looks like she's been working out for awhile, and her, how do her breasts sit so neatly, why does this girl have such confidence while i sit back being the ugly duckling. see this is what we do, we compare ourselves to every other woman in the room but we forget that we don't know what it's like in their shoes. and i know i got off track with not trusting you but you have to understand that my trust starts with me, i have to love myself enough to know that their is no reason or need to compete, no disrespect but i have to know without your love i'm complete. so it's not you i don't trust it's me, i sound like that stereotypical girl so afraid of losing something instead of appreciating. but this is the reality of our women, so death stricken and afraid that if we lose the one we love to someone else we aren't good enough, however what we fail to do is to call out lifes bluff.the misconceptions of society says we need to have trust, in order for this to work, for that to happen you need to have enough confidence to know that you should always come first. and i know you tuned me out since the first verse but i had to express to you why it hurts. my gigahertz of love is starting to disperse and i need to get it back, delete some filed of "im not good enough" and upload some faith, download confidence and maybe i'll get back what wasn't even at stake. and i know you're confused about an argument you didn't participate in, but i just needed to tell you what i was feeling as a woman.

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[PBreezy19]

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[VenessaVB]

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[royalflushpres]

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