My Social Anxiety Story part 9

Post-Thanksgiving thoughts, family relationships, how to deal with negativity, and a little bit about what I really want in life.

Background music: "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" by Iron & Wine, from the Twilight movie soundtrack

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• social
• anxiety
• depression
• family
• negativity
• happiness

[xhderbez]

How do you guys deal with work?if you have jobs.for me every minute feels so painful and anxiety only builds up. i have to be drunk most of the time.

[AnnaForReal]

Work is a struggle, especially at first. Once I get to know people and know what is expected of me, I can kind of calm down where I don't panic as much, but it's definitely something I dread. Basically, I wouldn't be able to survive without some sort of paycheck, so I just force myself. I'm sorry you're having a hard time of it though. Is there a certain type of environment that is particularly anxiety-causing for you? Maybe there's a certain type of job that could work. Don't give up hope! :)

[darelief]

I think this total opposite personality aspects are like polarities. I used to be like that too, I guess something build up and it's like I don't want to be too shy all the time, rebellion maybe.

[AnnaForReal]

I agree, it's like, since I'm so shy and reserved most of the time, I have to act out/rebel once in a while just to get that energy out where I feel like if nothing else, at least sometimes I can let some of my real personality out. Thanks for watching! :)

[MegaDreamer88]

Hey exactly! I feel like this isn't me! This is not who I really am and like I'm LOST

[AnnaForReal]

I feel the same way! I feel like I'm somewhat a naturally quiet person, but I hate that that aspect of my personality can totally override the more outgoing side of me. It can be such a struggle for people with SA to get their "real" self to shine through the SA behaviors.