Aspergers Syndrome my life till now part 1

Aspergers Syndrome my life till now part 1

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[heroicphoenix000]

I've done some similar things you did when I was younger. To be honest, I don't know how many times you've been walking home & all of a sudden a girl/boy in their friends car says to you: "nice glasses, fattie." or etc. Sometimes I feel like people look down on me because I have Aspergers. Could you give any advice to a junior?

[Aspergianstar2009]

@heroicphoenix000 the trick is no matter how much it hurts learn to laugh at yourself. Say look at me I am a 4 eyed fat boy etc. What can they say to that??? Takes the wind out of their sails. Trust me it works. Works here and works in real life

[heroicphoenix000]

@Aspergianstar2009, thanks. I'll remember that.

[Aspergianstar2009]

@heroicphoenix000 another thing to remember is that never lose sight of the fact that there are a lot of rich and important people that have our condition. People are jealous of our intelligence. They go through life not having a clue how to manage things and just moan about why they dont have enough money. So those girls laughing in the car will probably get knocked up with a kid and booted out by the boyfriend. Dont worry we are destined for greater things

[ghodium]

i'm apparently 'capable of work' and have had my incapacity benefit stopped thanks to a medical analyst contracted by the DWP who spoke to me for 50 mins and wrote a report containing things like "can understand a story" and "difficulties are mild", despite my trying and failing to integrate into the open plan work environment 10 times over 6 years... 6 wks from homelessness thanks to a system that pays no attention to social environment when assessing capability to work, they haven't got a clue

[Aspergianstar2009]

I am sorry to hear that Ghodium you need really to get an advokate so that if its difficult at the meetings someone can speak on your behalf. But I would strongly suggest that you appeal and try and get the decision revoked.

[lauraleesmithagain]

Asperger's was not an official diagnosis till 1994 so I'm sure a lot of people went through what you did where they were told nothing was wrong with them. I don't have any disability, but I feel I can relate because as a teenager I suffered from physical pain and my parents including the doctors accused me of lying for attention (even though I had zero history of pretending to be sick- & rarely ever even got sick.) By the time they realized I was telling the truth the Cancer had already spred.

[lauraleesmithagain]

@timtak1 Spock is Awesome though.

[cloudsaboveproduct]

Hi there. Nice blog. As a fellow sufferer I can totally emphaise. Please check out my video and would appreciate your comments. Thanks for this video.

[timtak1]

There it is a again... the fragility.... at 6:52.

The rest of the time you look like a card. Does "look like a card" mean anything these days? Its, my parents expression, for cool, happy, jokey, self-possessed, jovial.

[timtak1]

By the way, you look cute when you go to drink your tea. Fragile. Woried.

It is like you are not looking at your tea, but wanting to have eyes in the back of your head, like you think that someone might be in the room and hit you when you are taking a sip, like you are using your periferal vision even as you put the cup to your lips, like you are using your periferal vision so much that you might even miss the cup with your lips.

BTW I came to this video completely by chance. nice vid.

[timtak1]

The guy I met recently with A.S. was like you said, like Spock.

And I guess it seemed as if he was a purely logical, or perhaps, (sorry if I am being overbearing with this theory) a purely linguistic being. He was the words. Watch my lips (a strange expression, which means the opposite of what it says, it means really "listen to what I am saying").

So, my armchair A.S. theory is...being able to catch oneself in words, but having a tough time seeing oneself unless one has a mirror/webcam

[timtak1]

When one makes eye contact, then it can feel like one is invisible. Because eye contact....kinda forces us to realise that one can't see oneself, perhaps?? One knows that the other guy, the guy with the eyes, is looking at something, but as one is looking at that person, it is apparent that one can only see the guys eyes and not ones own eyes. All one can see is the other guys face. Other people's eyes forces upon us the realisation of ones own invisibility.

[timtak1]

Does relate to the eye contact thing?

You look worried. You look Aspergers, I guess.

See 1:35 and 5:29.

I am into Lacan a little. I mean a little. Card holding Lacanians are too much. But he goes on about, er, visual and linguistic pathways to self cognition and how it is important to have both, and how the latter is better.

Looking at the video, I feel that you have a lack of confidence (?) in your visual persistance. When you can't see yourself, you *seem* to feel defenseless.

[timtak1]

You look like Aspergers or something when you go to drink your tea.

It is like, while you are speaking to your screen (where I guess your face is displayed) you know that you are there, like the rest of us know but when you go to drink your tea...there is an expression that I do not recognise in myself....like perhaps you think you are invisible?

[m1tchish]

I went to a special school for three years...