The Movements - 1st Movement / KANCHA

Yes to each thing you have said. Gurdjieff spoke of 3(5) Centers: the "moving"/ "instinctive" center , the "Emotional" center and the "intellectual" center.They correspond to the "carriage" ,the "horse" and the " cabbie" Each man need endeavor to 'return' the "Master" ( or "passenger")! to 'instruct' the driver of His "aim' or "Wish" Also corresponding to : the 'way of the fakir'(body). the 'way of the monk'(emotions) and the 'way of the yogi'(mind).

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The failure to operate properly in the 3 centers is what holds us back

The inability to attain the 3rd level of Consciousness is what holds us back. Without self remembering you cannot be or do anything, you are just a Machine or Automaton and without level 3 you cannot obtain the fourth level which is Objective Consciousness. Jesus said this as well but no one can see it because they are asleep. He said it over and over. Wake, Sleep not, Watch, Know Thyself. Per Gurdjieff the Church has completely destroyed the original message and teachings of Jesus.

The best thing for U to do is Read Gurdjieff Material.
In Search of the Miraculous
Meeting of Miraculous Men
Life is real only then when I am
Views from the Real World
The Fourth Way

After reading the material, U will have a huge insight into the teachings and as you read along you will know whether or not you want to continue learning.

Considering that you seem very interested I think you will be stimulated on many topics and then if u choose to go further, find a Gurdjieff Group near you.