Remember Me Now? Ch.58

Joe's P.O.V.
What did I do to make her so mad? I seriously thought she wanted to. I'll just leave her alone tonight and she will probally be better in the morning.

Kevin's P.O.V.
I sat there stroking Zanna's head. I looked down at her and she was blinking slowly. Which I knew meant she was tired. I sat there for awhile longer and she finally fell asleep. I slowly picked her up and put her back down on my bed. Careful not to wake her. I got out my laptop and checked our Myspace. I accepted about 300 friend requests and randomly picked a girl who was online and commented on her page. Within 30 seconds I saw she had commented back. I guess I forgot I was a Jonas Brother because I laughed to myself wondering how saying hi to a girl made her so happy. Of course I remembered again when I looked at the thousands of friend requests we had left.

Lauren's P.O.V.
(Ok it's not sexually graphic. It just deals with some blood, so I am just warning you. Because some people have weak stomachs when it comes to blood)
I slid the blade across my wrist and winced a little bit at the pain. I saw the cut form and the blood drip out. It felt like deja-vu *sp* Memories came flooding back, of me in this moment many times. I felt tears slid down my cheeks, not because of the cut, but of what used to happen. I moved the blade back to my wrist to make another cut, but someone grabbed my wrist. I jumped causing the blade to swipe across my cheek. I felt the sting on my face and I looked up to see Nick holding my wrist. "Lauren. Stop" Nick said. He wasn't yelling at me. His voice sounded concerned. "I-I don't know how" I squeaked. Nick sat down on my bed and pulled me into him. He sat against my headboard and cradled me. I let the tears really fall and he held me. He rubbed my back and whispered the occasional "Shh. It's ok". He let me cry and when I was finally done, he looked down at me. "Why did you do that?" Nick asked softly. "I don't know" I lied. But Nick didn't stop there. "Yes you do" Nick protested. And that's exactly what I needed. I needed someone to keep going until I told them. Someone to actually care. I curled up tighter in his arms and rested my head against his chest. "It all started last year" I explained. "I had been getting in fights with my dad and we just happened to be learning about self mutilation (cutting yourself) in health. And I just wondered why people did it. I didn't understand how hurting yourself could make you feel good. So I tried it. It hurt, but then somehow the blood calmed me. I don't know why. But I kept doing it. I only wore long sleeves, even in the summer. Not hoodies or anything, but really thin long sleeve shirts. And I thought nobody would notice. But they did. My mom found out and she told my dad. Which made me and my dad fight more. They threatened me about sending me to a psycologist if I didn't stop. I stopped, but just on my wrists. I found other places to do it, and one day it went to far. I got in a fight with my best friend, and my dad would not leave me alone. He kept yelling at me and I just wanted to get away. So I cut myslef down my whole arm. I guess I went to deep, because suddenly I felt really dizzy. I collapsed and woke up in the hospital. I had to get stiches and the doctors made me go to a psycologist. I remember laying in the hospital bed, looking at my parents faces. My mom's was all red and her eyes were bloodshot from crying. Then I looked at my dad. His face was sad and his eyes even sadder. Almost like he knew it was his fault. I got help, and I haden't done it in about 8 months. Until now" I explained. Nick never interupted me. Not once. He just listened. "Lauren. If only I would of known--" Nick started to say. "But you didn't. And you never could of. It's not your fault" I said. Nick took my arm and softly ran his finger over the scar. We were quiet for awhile, but Nick broke the silence. "So what made you do it tonight?" Nick asked. "I don't know. All Joe was talking about was sex, and saying getting married soon. And I guess I snapped. I started going off at him. It was like it triggered something in my mind. I really didn't mean to yell at him" I said. "Lauren. Can I ask you something?" Nick asked. "Sure" I said quietly. "Not now, but in the future, can you really picture yourself marrying Joe?" Nick asked completley serious.
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Isn't Nick the BESTEST friend in the world? I mean how many guys do you know that would do what he did?

And I am NOT implying cutting yourself is a good way to get rid of anger! If you think about doing it, STOP! Your only going to hurt yourself and the ones you love. So please don't do it.

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P.S. Does anyone know what there being for Halloween?!

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[YeahItzLily]

Oh man. What a chapter. Pretty intense if you ask me. Lucky Lauren to have such an amazing best friend.

For Halloween I'm going to be a Dead Fairy Ballarina Princess. Random and crazy pretty much.

[MrsNickJonas0207]

that will definatley be cool! haha im random too!

[Cutepiemegan101]

HALLOWEEN!!!!! I am going to be a nerd trying to be a hip hop gangsta typical retarded me

I say retard alot!!

[MrsNickJonas0207]

haha thats a good one!

[Meroxpplzsox]

okay not trying to sound bitchy but if you cut your cheek and then cried it wouldn't sting like shit?

[MrsNickJonas0207]

hmm..i have no clue. maybe try and re-start your computer and see if it works

[XoDjDangaOX]

hey mrsnickjonas0207 or anyone on here, youtube is like have soooooo many problems for me and when i go to a page its all blank so i cant see the videos so how do i get it like back?

[XoDjDangaOX]

I was going to be joe jonas for halloween but i cant find a good outfit for him so idk yet!!

[youknowirock1234]

I want to be a box for halloween...jk.

[nicholasx3jonas]

that was intenseeee

and im being tinkerbell :D

[marylovesjonas]

i lovvvvvvvvvvvvve it =] and i got my halloween costume yesterday and im being a SAILOR=] and me and my friend are making a tag that says : S.S. JONAS

[KeepyourPromisesGirl]

yeah because we have almost enough comments if not the amount you wanted wow we commented fast! that was like 3 or 4 hours maybe

[littlebabygirl32]

if we get enough comments before you go to bed are you gonna post another one??

[YeahItzLily]

lol awesome! there is absoloutly nothing wrong with being random [: