i think i'm moving

[but i go nowhere.]

please watch in HD, thanks :)

I do not own the song.
Stop and Stare- OneRepublic

sorry if this video is boring to you. i was going to make it into a crazy editied video but then this happened, and i kind of liked it.


long vent/description ahead. read at your own risk haha.
this is probably one of my favorite videos ever. not because the clips are amazing or it's so well edited or anything like that, because it isn't. it's just plain and simple. but i think it has a message that all of us as equestrians can relate to.

"stop and stare. i think i'm moving but i go nowhere."

when you finally think you're getting somewhere with your riding, something gets in the way yet again. honestly, i'm a terrible rider. i try as hard as i can, but it never seems to amount to anything.

it really sucks to realize that you're only average at something you dedicate your entire life to. just another kid. another face in the crowd. just another person that will be watched by the pros, just to have your face vanish from their minds only moments later. every day i go to the barn. every day i put in one hundred and ten percent of my effort. i do tough barn chores without complaint and help out wherever i can. i ride whatever i can to get better. and i have gotten better. but not better enough.
there's literally thousands of kids out there in the riding world who are just like me.thousands. probably more. hard-working kids. but average kids all the same. to every other trainer and judge, i'm just another girl who wants to make it big.
i try so hard. but even after all this hard work, i don't even have one good round to show for it. we all say we don't care about winning. but there's that little piece inside of all of us that screams with frustration when things don't go the way we want, especially after all the effort we put in. i love the sport, and i would never give it up for anything. but still.
i have the opportunities, the horse, the support and the trainer to do it. the only thing that's missing is the talent.

"yeah i know that every one gets scared, but i've become what i can't be."

i won't take no for an answer.


-Kirsten

ps, from this video i know it looks like i saw my horses toung and rip his mouth out left and right, but take my word for it, i really don't.




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[wheelyhunterjumperxx]

<3

[PonyFlyer321]

@wheelyhunterjumperxx (:

[TheLovebug523]

omg i love you. sorry if this is weird or creepy but your description literalllyyyyyy made me want to cry with happiness because now i know someone else feels the same way i do!!!! thank youu for making my night

[PonyFlyer321]

@TheLovebug523 hahah it's not creepy at all! and you're welcome! :) sometimes just knowing someone feels the same as you makes the situation a little bit better.

[cinemaSTEFUNNY]

Oh. My. Goodness, thats exactly where I am too. i've worked my butt off my entire life for this and I go to a Pony Club Testing and get told I'm just not good enough. Even though I've worked 3x as hard as anyone else there.

[PonyFlyer321]

@cinemaSTEFUNNY wow i'm so sorry. that's really awful. it really just isn't fair at all sometimes. hopefully things will work out for you eventually. <3

[PonyFlyer321]

@RoseriaaZ thanks! :)

[PonyFlyer321]

@oochessca718oo yes! :)

[PonyFlyer321]

@ilovehorses1313 aw i'm really sorry ): i know how that feels, but keep working hard and things will work out for you. feel better <3

[ilovehorses1313]

i know how you feel today i got back from a show (from camp) & the first day i got on this horse i fell off then something clicked and friday was great with her we were jumping jumps i though i wouldn't jump /her, then the show today the 2nd last jump she ducked and then clicked and i fell on her neck and came in last in the show, i though i was better then that and i started to cry right in front of everyone because all week i worked so hard and what.. to lose.. but i see where ur coming from