RIP, Sox, This isn't a g o o d b y e, but a s e e you later

wow, where to even begin. First off this video i made a year ago, i couldn't make a video, i'm just not ready to yet but within the next few weeks expect a great video to come.

Today (2/18/11) will be a day that i remeber for the rest of my life. It has been an extremely emotional and tough day. I have felt things i never thought i could experince, i have seen things i never want to have to see again. The decision to end a horses life is a terrible thing to have to deal with, especially at 17. But i am in a world where life and death happens everyday. Sox has been eternally loving, and giving. He has taught many important things to my family and I. One of which is to "count all things joy", He never was a complainer, which is why putting him down was the hardest thing to do. Because he just came across as so darn happy. Yesterday we took him to Dr. Brock in Lamessa, Texas. He xrayed him, and we knew it was not good. He has literally nothing left of his navicular bone, and he is to the point where the bones around start giving off this liquid which is supposedly very painful to go through. Dr. Brock was so shocked at how this horse was still even walking let alone standing. So we knew we had to put him down, and the next decision was if we were bringing him home and putting him down at our house, or leaving him at the vet clinic. Becuase we have been working with the insurance company since day one, so they weren't needing us to cut open his legs and send them the bones (which in some cases they need.) My mom and i both were leaning towards leaving him there (orginally i did not want to do this) but having him put down at our house was a concern for my stepdad. Well my mom was on the phone with my stepdad and left the clinic to go talk outside, my sister and her horse happy also left the building so Sox and I were the only ones left in the building. And Sox just started neighing frantically looking for my mom, and at the point i think we both realized we couldn't leave him at the clinic. So arrangements were made with this guy who did dug a hole and helped with the burying. So today ((this morning at about 10 am)) I led sox out to his pasture... where i had to leave him (my parents wouldn't let me be there because they didn't want my last memory of him to be... dead) So i went into the tackroom with my sister where we waited and waited. And after about 5 minutes my phone starts making the bell ringtone (if you have an iphone you know that bell tone? that was playing) and for no random reason, no text, no phone call, no alarm. And we realized Sox got his wings.. everytime a bell rings an angel gets his wings. And after that we heard the tractor turn on which ment he was being put in his grave. We have these baseball fields across the back pasture that sox would stand on his "moutain" (the bank) and would watch the baseball games, so he was buried facing those, and our bank has been moved ontop of him. My mom says that he was taken care of and the people were so gentle moving him into the grave which i am so thankful for. And once everyone had left and we let out our other 2 horses, Marcus (who loved Sox) was running around neighing and looking for him... which was so sad to see. So there's his final chapter to this story, which has now come to an end. But he remains forever in our hearts. God has been so good today, showing little signs of him being here for him... I believe that Sox is up there, and that God puts animals up in heaven if that's whats going to make you happy. I do believe that God has put Sox up there, and he's just waiting for me to come back. The sunset tonight was absolutely gorgeous, it was just a sun with no clouds, and it gave off this radiant orange color. I knew that was a sign from God and Sox saying hello. I can't thank our Lord enough for putting this amazing horse into my life. If it wasn't for this long journey with him, i would have never gotten the opportunity to own Marcus. He has changed and inspired many people and to think he was in my hands. Maybe someday his story will be made into a movie, or a book, but untill then his story is here on youtube. I am positive that when Sox got up to the gates of heaven, God told him "Well Done My good and faithful servant,"
This isn't a goodbye, but a see you later Sox man, Say hi to God for me. I will always love you
This is a note from my mom she put on FB: I've "put down" pets before but this one is especially tough! he's SO big. he's big in size obviously but he's big in our hearts. partly because of his personality but mostly because of the enormous responsibility he had working for and protecting his rider -- my precious daughter. for that I will always be grateful and indebted. he carried her safely over obstacles -- all the while hurting but never once seemingly complaining or jeopardizing his rider and best friend! RIP

Thanks to all my 2,500 subscribers, and for being here to support us during these time.

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[Paddyandtheworld]

never seen such a beautiful video xx

[myhorseAnna]

I'm very sorry for you'r loss, I read the description, and it made me cry... subbed<3

[xDreamingInColourx]

I am so sorry for your loss, I read the whole description and was crying by the end of it :'( <3

[riesenpony]

:(

[HorseLuver4v3r]

wow girl, I totally understand your feelings... I had a horse echo that was such a cutie! he would never give up, even when he cut his eye and leg... but then one day... he broke his coffin bone... We had to put him down whnen he was 8

[MultiBecca123]

i just cried my eyes out im very sorry i dont no much about horses and i cant imagine how hard that must of been for you xx

[Thebreyerphotographe]

Good luck and i am so sorry you had to sell your horse

[SnowFire337]

almost 1 year anniversary. I wish you well <3

[crazyformisty123]

This made me bawl

[WildStarPro]

This was a really hard video to watch and it took all my strength not to cry. That didn't work. The way that you talk about this horse shows the love you had still have for him.