My derealization-

a testimony about how it feels. I need some fucking good medicine.

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• depersonnalization

[SeanSaosin]

i dont think ur near as bad as u say u are

if ur able to chill and make a youtube video

i think alot of it is in ur head

my derealization was beyond making a youttube video

pce

[Bubaflicka]

Yes, it's in my head, that's why I tried to kill myself 2 times and stayed 3 days between life and death. You feel too bad to make a video but you don't mind watching and criticizing. You can't compare people's pain.

[caveat21]

So many things are connecting for me...like my first experience w/ pot, and the reasons I always feel guilty bout not loving my bf's (knowing I do intelecutaly but not feeling it emotionally, etc). Those are just to of the things that are coming to light for me. Im sure there will be more as I learn more about dp. Im still even amazed that Im not crazy and theres a name for it!

[Bubaflicka]

No, you're not crazy. But I know how it feels to feel like you are...

[boxe432]

hey i think i have this. i feel so restless and like im in a dream but not in a dream. like theres a wall in my mind a cant pass but am trying to escape. hey dont kill urself. im 17 try goin to highschool with this shit

[thinkpantera]

i get this derealization from smokin weed...i think back to when i was drug free,care free but that was long ago kinda like a memory...

[TeenSkrillex]

dereal is a gift cherish it you are a "god" one of the chosen ones!!!

[Mr156651]

I tryed fighting it but it just did not wear off. I learned some information that may wear it off. try and fight it with your eyez cloased and see what you can learn from it

peace

[PATINHISWHITET]

you don't have depression. i have derealization also and i do have that same feeling as if i wanna just go home once i leave....but having this attitude does not help anything. you must force yourself to be involved in things, even though you might not enjoy it or feel anything in general but in the end it is helping you....sitting at home all day accomplishes nothing and you are literally letting this disorder consume you...trust me i've been dealing with this shit too

[markd514]

turn it up-I cant hear you!

[blackgirl86]

Anyone know a good medicine that will help with this? Please let me know ASAP!!

[TomCruiseInVanilaSky]

derealization for me feels like hell on earth...../ stuck in a bad high 24/7

check my video out...

[iowneveryone30]

@SeanSaosin LOL that doesnt have shit to do with it. thats so fucking dumb. obviously, shes forcing herself to make a video, you could have done the same dumbass.....

[imalwayswatchingu00]

You should do Myer's Briggs Type Indicator. MBTI, I'm really interested in what you'd be.

[Coops025]

Wow you just explained exactly how i feel :(

I've had this for over a year now with no feelings or at least fake feelings, i hate being outside of my house because i feel worse.

I have tried everything possible to try and overcome this and the only thing that has helped me is liqurice root and goto gola which helped me to see and think more clear.

I'm getting help soon but i remain doubtfull due to the face no cure is known.

[DownStepTV]

Hey everyone. Like most of you, I suffer from Derealization. And I wanted to express how I feel, so I wrote a song based on DP and Derealization. Its called "Black & White", go to my page and check it out. It made me feel better being able to talk about it, so I hope it helps some of you as well.

[imnotgonnadie1549]

@Bubaflicka I agree. I have it too. I know how hard it can be. *hugs*

[mittensxonxkittens]

I know all about the not wanting to do anything...

it's like you KNOW you should...and you want to...but at the same time you just DON'T...

For me it's like...nothing feels really..."real"

I used to smoke pot...and oddly enough it almost helped make me feel kinda normal...cause everyone else seemed the same...

For me it's not constant...but often -_-

I also tend to think about suicide a lot...but for me I think I'd be to scared...call me a coward -_- but I just couldn't.

[lorenamaribel007]

WOW thank u soo much for making this i feel exactly the same way:S it sucks .. its really hard for me to explain the way im feeling but ur video explains it all... i feel like i dont have feeling for anyone, i pertend like i do though because i fear in losing people and staying alone, i want to go to school but i cant seem to concentrate as hard as i try, my mind is alwaysblank or foggy. i hate it, its ruining my life, i cant even reember most of my past.

[MAHA673TFM]

that will make it the two of us

[CharmingLordSausage]

This sounds like a classic anxiety sensation.

DP/ DR is a protection mechanism that the nervous system uses to avoid overload. It is completely harmless and normal. The problem is it feels absolutely like the most alien thing you can EVER feel. What causes it = stress and fear. As soon as you become alarmed by the sensation it makes it worse. In order to lose it you have to give up all hope of ever losing it. By not caring about, it, by not engaging it - this dis empowers it.

[SquishyDishyX]

I suffered from this since i was 8 im 18 now

[blaziinalbo111]

are you still feeling it?

[MyFeetOnColdPavement]

I empathize with you. I have HPPD occurring from repeated drug use and it is slow being accompanied with depersonalization. My parents don't believe me so I can't even see a doctor and it gets to the point where I can't turn off the lights to sleep. However bad it gets though, please don't kill yourself! Girl you are only 23 you have your whole life in front of you and you will make it! :D

[primetimebeatz]

see its simple its all phycology u dont feel the same so u trick your self into thinkin about it too much so just chill ur thinkin too hard to wanna kill your self and instead of wanting to die u should wanna live i got to a point where i wuz so depressed i wuz way past suicide i just wanted to live lol but yeah look up dopamine defficiancy i think that might be a coulprit

[happysmileday]

lol

[Jinbleuange]

I got the same when I was 12 or 13 without having smoked anything. Now I'm 21, I understand u perfectly, I just feel like living in hell.

[Rachel34978]

I like that.