failure and reputation

i've written a song with a lovely lovely guitar player called little micky fingers.
i very rarely collaborate,but when i do,it's because i hear or see something in the other person which convinces me....and this fella sounds like he truly loves playing his guitar,so naturally i loved singing over it.

the melody and words i wrote over mickys music came about very suddenly.

a little background

i had been out in south kensington at the bibendum for oysters and champagne with my partner and our dog'billy fields'.
it's one of my very favourite things to do in the summertime.
a real treat and something i can't afford to do all the time.
at another table across the room was ronnie wood of the rolling stones...
i dunno how it really happened, but we were sort of vibing each other ,and then he and his bodyguard ended up over at my table talking..
we actually have mutual friends,so it was nice....
ronnie's a lovely man...very personable , and real as fuck.
when he left,i watched him walk lazily down the sunny street and slide out of view....
i couldn't help but ponder on what a great life he has...
not in a jealous way...
just curious ...
that man is a real rock n roll success,and he's earned it....


sooooooo

then when i got home,i discovered a load of annoying crap written about me on the internet...
one man , who's never done nothing, said about me,and i quote: 'the man's a failure'
this hurts ,because on one level its absolutely true....
i'm big enough to OWN it though...
i had big dreams for myself,invested my whole life into it,but in commercial terms,i failed...
there's no bitterness.....
i just feel grateful that i got to make records...
i feel grateful that i STILL make music....
i feel very grateful for so many things...
sure,life is a white knuckle ride sometimes..
but it's still amazing......

soooo you see the day i wrote this song,
i had the contrast of the lovely afternoon talking with a guitar player from one of my favourite groups,
and then coming home and experiencing a load of bollocks on the internet...
this happens to me every blue moon or so.....
i do love the internet,
but every now and then there's some dick smoker who seriously gets on my disco-tits .....

so i sat in my music room feeling pretty emotional, and these words and melody just fell out of me....
i recorded it in one session, and then went to bed as the dawn broke,shaking and feeling very raw....
i hope you like it

the video is deliberately of nothing...
i'm just trying to throw realness down the lense, and evoke my attitude and humanity.
just trying to connect with you on some human level.....
bridge the gap....
i can only hope it engages you.

love as always

mary cigarettes

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[MacNutz2]

it is a peculiar thing to listen to a person who at times seems to be writing about your own life. So, beautiful, again.

[marycigarettes]

@MacNutz2 that would be the ultimate...finding the common ground between you and me....so thanks..much love and gratitude your way.

[JPRBlues]

Great lyrics and melody. Love your voice some beautiful sweet tones...Peace...Jake

[marycigarettes]

@JPRBlues thanks jake.....i know you think a lot about tone too in that great guitar playing of yours

[loopyone73]

It doesn't help me to know that it hurts Mary but your ability to move me with your words does every single time. There are depths to your music that are unique to me because they are never hidden away. It's all there on a magnificent display. Bold and beautiful.

Mr. E. =)

[marycigarettes]

@loopyone73 you hurt ... i hurt ...we all do ... it's one of the reasons i write songs.

loads of love to you.

[MizzCorbeau]

I think if you survived the hate this long and were brave enough to turn it around,your a success.

[EdMuirton]

P.S. Ronnie Wood! Fuckin' Wow man! Bet you won't forget that day! Luv always Mary!

[SgtBastard101]

Holy schite, Mr. Cigarrettes, what did I do to deserve the Bird?! hehehe....bravo mystro...liked a # of lines...smashing the pc like a 21st century Hendrix or Townshend...inspired me to decrease my internet time and start doing sazen again. Miss ya bruder. I listen to yer songs pretty reg. I should comment more. Are you on facebook? Later gator...

[SimonBellTube]

I love the story behind what brought this song out.. as real as it can get.

[TheDaveFrom1952]

I just love the honesty of your music Mary.

No more to be said.

[214kennedy]

subversive, yet fraiche

[streetspiritlive]

ps. god, i love micky fingers too

but i guess you knew that already! : )))

[streetspiritlive]

It's True! Been left high n dry... in my backyard n yours... Seriously, found out how Life n Love can be a gamble... it doesn't stop the pain to know You can fuck me Been there already! But you make Love in This Song!! otherwise i'd smash this computer thing n all! Please pardon me, while I dip a cookie into your tea i don't know what else do... in this moment of my life... ; )