I couldn't believe it. It wasn't real. She couldn't be gone for good.
I didn't blame her, because she had all the rights to just break it off with me. I would have done the same.
I used her, cheated on her, lied to her, insulted her and most of all broke her heart too many times.
I had everything, I had her, and now, I was alone, with a glass of scotch, in this empty house, our house, and I couldn't help but hate myself for
what I did to her, the only one who supported me no matter what, comforted me when I didn't want anyone to.Now she hated me, and I was the one that caused that with my vane promises in the first place.
I went to our bedroom and grabbed some papers from the nightstand. She wanted the divorce, and I would gave it to her, and that would be the first thing nice I'd do for her in years. I sat on our bed and thought of the past, of the day we met...
Exactly three years after being together, we got married,and I could tell you that I was the happiest man alive.
Then something happened: my father died, leaving me in a complete mess. I loved him, even if I'm sure he never felt anything resembling affection towards me, but I actually wanted to do something that would have made him proud of me. I started to burden myself with work, becoming one of those category of husbands I hated so much, and I promised her not to be: the cheating workaholics, that actually are too busy to take care of their wives at home, but have time for screwing their personal assistants.
I bossed her around and had affairs with bitches I didn't care about.I was a cold-hearted jerk, that started thinking that having feelings was a sign of weakness, a jackass who didn't say 'I love you' to his wife anymore. But she never left, she was always by my side, supporting me, putting her wishes behind to be the perfect wife to a messed-up man.
I laid on the bed, realizing I had to do something, to say something. I got up quickly, before running out of the room and downstairs. I grabbed the car-keys before getting in the elevator, down to the garages. I went in my car and drove as fast as possible.
30 minutes later I found myself knocking on a door
"Zac?" Ashley said surprised after seeing me in her doorway "What are you doing here?"
"I...can I come in?" I asked hopeful. She stepped aside, letting me in her flat. "Nice place" I stated looking around
"What are you doing here?" she asked again, trying to stay calm
"I wanna talk to you."
"I think you had time for what...4 years. And you just wasted it." she said coldly
"You're right, Ashley."
"I am?" she asked confused "You never agree with me. Never ever, Zac." she looked at me worried "Is something wrong?" she asked walking up to me
"No...I mean...yes. There's something right with me. Can I please tell you what I'm here for?" I begged
Go ahead." she gave in
"I wanted to say that I'm sorry for what I've put you through. I'm sorry, Ashley, for not being myself these years, for being weak, and pushing you away. I'm sorry for not..." I stopped, feeling myself teary eyed. I took a big breath "Well, I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you, but I did and.." I just stopped myself for saying anything else, being on the verge of tears
She stared at me in disbelief before saying "You don't know how much I wanna believe you..."
"I'm not asking for a second chance, Ashley."
"What?" she asked shocked
"I understand that you don't wanna be with me. I don't want to be with myself either." I laughed sadly, while tears were escaping my eyes "I just want your forgiveness."
"So you will give me the divorce?"
"I will. That's what is best for you. Do something that will make you happy, like you never did, with me." I smiled sadly
"Zac.." she cupped my cheek and looked into my eyes. She started crying, like she used to do after our fights, closed in our bedroom. I hugged her and cried with her.
"I love you." I whispered in her ear, through the tears.
She instantly pulled away "Why are you saying this now? Why are you trying to break all my walls? Why, Zac?!" she yelled before slapping me. Hard
"Because...I dont know! I need your forgiveness. Please, Ashley....please." I fell on my knees " I love you, please just this last kindness, and then I'll disappear from your life" I said crying more every second
"You don't want me anymore?" she asked softly
I looked up at her "I never wanted you. I needed you, as I need you now. You were the one for me, but you always deserved better. You don't need me." I whispered
"I forgive you." she whispered back
"What?" I stood up brutally "Really?" I asked smiling slightly
"I do." she smiled back at me
"Thanks, Ashley." I said glad I had earn her forgiveness. I hugged her and kissed her forehead. I pulled away before making my way to the front door
"Zac.." she called, and I stopped dead track
"Yes?" I turned around
"I have to tell you something..." she looked at her hands
"What's wrong?" I asked worried
"I love you too."
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l-o-v-e-d it awsome too bad its not longer i loved it sooo cute!!!!
ustopgirl 1 year ago
thnx! :D
chanellovesing 1 year ago
to bad it's a one shot this would of been a great story
RentFanforever1988 1 year ago 2
thanks. actually the one shoot was quite long, but youtube didnt accept the logan description, so i actually had to cut it :(
thanks for the nice comment
chanellovesing 1 year ago