has to end and even if I don't do it maybe she will....I have been sad all day...shes my mom...I have been reminising over my childhood....thanks chris I get on soul garden and its reaffirms me and makes me feel better
that there hasn't been any love in the relationship since I was a teen...I have since 18 been homeless and hungry and in very dire situations numerous times without support(she refused) but shes my mom..my last layer of security.....I think pluto and saturn know our relationship isn't healthy and that its time for an ultimate break...I have been estranged from her before but not completly but I think I know that my life, beliefs have changed and for me to move foward I believe our relationship
when I say "mean" I consider honest...and not even in a blunt way..if I share my feelings with her about how she makes me feel adn it hurts her feelings she tells me i am abusive and hangs up the phone on me...she married this redneck(its scary my mom was born and raised in LA) who allways is telling me to ask god for forgivness so I don't go to hell..(my mom is from la she met my dad in an astrology class..this is what I mean when I say she has changed from fear...)I also realize
very judgmental of people and discriminating and more and more fundamentalist christian and her friends are all wealthy old texas money(like bush)(I am a mixed race child like obama.I grew up only with her )I as I am getting older find myself not liking the person she has become I constantly question her views and I don't think I fit into her world anymore... she has banned me from thanksgiving and christmas again (this is not the first time) for not getting my hair cut..and being "mean" to her
traumatic childhood...but I believe that it happened to shape me to pursue my destiny and dreams....(I was lucky to let it shape me instead of being a victim of my experiences) but my mom( a cancer leo rising taurus moon with no air planets except mars in gemini) has a tendency to in my opinion feel like a victim of her experiences and blames everyone..my mom tells me that our relationship is my fault and has been estranged from me really since I was 14...she has gone from being openminded to
chris I was going through heart ache and turned on soul garden and you have no idea how much this reaffirms that whats happening in my life is happening for a reason.....I am a gemini with libra rising and a taurus moon and venus) I lost my job yesterday and have been worrying about finances and how I am gonna survive much less move to london soon from the states...on top of that I have a huge feeling I will soon be estranged from my mother...I am 23 I have had an intense childhood
has to end and even if I don't do it maybe she will....I have been sad all day...shes my mom...I have been reminising over my childhood....thanks chris I get on soul garden and its reaffirms me and makes me feel better
redwolf481 3 years ago
that there hasn't been any love in the relationship since I was a teen...I have since 18 been homeless and hungry and in very dire situations numerous times without support(she refused) but shes my mom..my last layer of security.....I think pluto and saturn know our relationship isn't healthy and that its time for an ultimate break...I have been estranged from her before but not completly but I think I know that my life, beliefs have changed and for me to move foward I believe our relationship
redwolf481 3 years ago
when I say "mean" I consider honest...and not even in a blunt way..if I share my feelings with her about how she makes me feel adn it hurts her feelings she tells me i am abusive and hangs up the phone on me...she married this redneck(its scary my mom was born and raised in LA) who allways is telling me to ask god for forgivness so I don't go to hell..(my mom is from la she met my dad in an astrology class..this is what I mean when I say she has changed from fear...)I also realize
redwolf481 3 years ago
very judgmental of people and discriminating and more and more fundamentalist christian and her friends are all wealthy old texas money(like bush)(I am a mixed race child like obama.I grew up only with her )I as I am getting older find myself not liking the person she has become I constantly question her views and I don't think I fit into her world anymore... she has banned me from thanksgiving and christmas again (this is not the first time) for not getting my hair cut..and being "mean" to her
redwolf481 3 years ago
traumatic childhood...but I believe that it happened to shape me to pursue my destiny and dreams....(I was lucky to let it shape me instead of being a victim of my experiences) but my mom( a cancer leo rising taurus moon with no air planets except mars in gemini) has a tendency to in my opinion feel like a victim of her experiences and blames everyone..my mom tells me that our relationship is my fault and has been estranged from me really since I was 14...she has gone from being openminded to
redwolf481 3 years ago
chris I was going through heart ache and turned on soul garden and you have no idea how much this reaffirms that whats happening in my life is happening for a reason.....I am a gemini with libra rising and a taurus moon and venus) I lost my job yesterday and have been worrying about finances and how I am gonna survive much less move to london soon from the states...on top of that I have a huge feeling I will soon be estranged from my mother...I am 23 I have had an intense childhood
redwolf481 3 years ago