Down the Rabbit Hole

A rough demo accompanies this story of a song I wrote. My journey into belief and self starts anew... History does repeat itself, no?

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[controlfunction]

Wow. I've had a look at a bunch of your vids today, (found you through Karmatic) and I was hoping there'd be some music in there. That's just lovely.Thanks for sharing, you made me sniffle dammit. :-)

[winterwinwin]

@controlfunction You are so sweet. Thank you. :D And no worries about language, the last thing you will do is offend me. LOL.

[Eopyk]

I remember this one.. it was truly beautiful song :)

Nice that you put it up again

All love from me Jasmine

[winterwinwin]

Thank you honey. :) You want me to share more songs?

[winterwinwin]

I decided to put this song back up for now. I feel weird honestly, sharing the story behind it and such intimate details - I feel it kind of ruins the mystery and personal interpretation of the song but whatevs. :) More music coming to you guys soon.

[thatmanley55]

Actually, 36Coffeepads, Gender Dysphoria, or Gender Identity Disorder, is a medically recognized condition that must be emotionally excruciating. I don't particularly like this video or the song, but I hope it serves a cathartic purpose for the creator and her audience. I know I feel lucky not to suffer with this condition and to have been born into a body that represents the gender that suits me and my mind, and you should too. I doubt anyone would wish this struggle on themselves or others.

[winterwinwin]

Sorry you're not entirely fond of the music or anything, but thank you so much for your kind words!!!:) /big hugs/ Hope you have a great day. :)

[mattvella91hotmail]

u look a bit like merly streep

[fixationonthedarknes]

my constructive critisizem now :D, ok the lyrics were good, and so was the piano, but what i think it could do with is a bit of emphesis on the chorus so it doesnt sound like one long verse, then a break for the piano then can toa verse. if you did that then i believe that the song will have more of an impact, as they will hear the chorus more easily.

[PerculaPlushPet]

Pregnant with knowledge, I like that

"Pregnant with Wisdom" - I like the duality of that

[PerculaPlushPet]

This song deserves to be a massive hit, Winter. It's actually well among my favourite songs. I do hope you release it.

[PerculaPlushPet]

@winterwinwin I'm very glad that you did, Winter, and I hope you find it in you to leave it up. I continue on my own journey down my own introspective rabbit hole of self; quite different to yours in some ways yet fundamentally still not. What I love about this song [and accompanying dialogue] is that you separate the gender from the intimate and social dysphoria and have put your experience, growth and healing of the [once] dysphoric human being in its place. In a way, you describe me.

[Mathfails]

i love when u hit the chorus babe~

[CaterinaFreeman]

This song is so beautiful. Thank you for posting it. You have a lovely voice.

[Eopyk]

@winterwinwin yes absolutly :)

All love from me Jasmine

[sg01gcc]

@winterwinwin I for one would love to hear more of your songs :)