HIV, the nightmare I will never wake up from

I am having a very hard time with HIV and the people who work in the HIV arena. I sick of hearing things like "I dont know" from people who are supposed to know. I am sick of gay men getting on their freaking soap box blasting me for what I am DOING while they sit on their ass and do nothing. I am sick of not knowing where I am with this disease. I am now 7 months behind in my blood work. I am so sick of people telling "there is plenty of quality health care for free" I am sick of red tape and I am sick of people getting paid fat pay checks and all they ever says is "I DONT KNOW" There are times when i wish I was never even told about HIV and the fact that I have it, because all it has done is added a huge heartache to my already screwed up medical situation. I know you guys are use to me being all upbeat and happy and positive, but today isnt that day.

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[brillancefasho]

I hope that you are able to get on meds to prolong your life so that you could still enjoy life and still persue any goals you may have. God has a plan for us all, don't give up on yourself man. God sure has not ! :) Good luck to you and God bless.

Also i wanna say you are still a Human Being , aids could never change that !

(Your not damaged goods man )

[Kengikat]

@brillancefasho You should really watch more of my videos. This is over two years old

[Xone7]

Speaking as a man who works in healthcare, it is so important for healthcare providers to remember the "care" portion of healthcare. I am so happy for you that you have had quality doctors that CARE about you. It is so important.

[Kengikat]

@Xone7 Well I did not get a doctor or a clinic that cares about me until June of 2009 when I once again had to change clinics when the doctor refused to sign housing forms saying "HIV is not a disability" I know have a great doctor and clinic. When I made this video my doctor and clinic were very much a HUGE part of the HIV nightmare

[urbanvibecanada]

I'm here because my husbands here, and I found help, I get 1,600$ of medication every 6 weeks because I got off my ass, and went and found the love that I was due... so please take this shit off and be a damned man, you put your ass up there w/o protection now it's your responsibilty to take care of it now..

I feel no sympathy at all not one iota...not one, we all got to die, some of us sooner than others, but you're a good looking man, so be a damned MAN !!!!

[Kengikat]

Furthermore I am not on HIV meds, never have been and as long as God says that same I never will be. Again maybe you got HIV by your having your ass in the air, again dont project your self HATE on any one else. Hasnt the man who takes care of you told you that? You have nothing on your channel so it is very easy for you to comment on others. Why not try to watch and learn something. Moreover since you are such a strong Black man, why do you have a white man as your face> More self hate right?

[NaughtyMinx111]

@NaughtyMinx111 The total system is a clusterfuck. Catch 21. You need to do this ... but can't do it because this or that. How often were you able to actually get Dr DuBey on the phone in conversation ? (Once every 4 months maybe ?)

[NaughtyMinx111]

Maybe the problem isn't the Doctors .. ultimately speaking that is! The problem is the system isn't it ? The system just isn't capable of handling the volume of people on State health care. Lack of investment! Pump more money into the healthcare, get better quality of Doctors. At the moment the ratio of Doctors & patients is probably 1 Doctor = 390 people. UK is similar. Thought & Respect dude

[brillancefasho]

I wanna say try and stay strong bro lean on God. I will pray for you as well. Is it that you can't get on Hiv Meds because you are homeless ? I think our health care system is horrible. I have got a friend who does not have any medical insurance or a job abd they are afraid to go to the hospital period. I think homeless people should be given help because their situation does not allow them to gain access to costly meds at all. Is that the situation with you ?

[W3s41nt2]

I am sorry for this man you'll make it alright pray every night and enjoy every day with family and friends I will pray for the world including you make the best out of life man take care

[lilrdog]

Stay Strong Man , Pray and God will be there for you

[aylix89]

@urbanvibecanada stop being such a heartless asshole.