smokin lonely finished but not offical recorded lyrics in description

just a rap about my feelings of the past to the present meshed together. i need money to get better things to record with. let me know what you think ! comment!
i know i messed up a lil at the end but whatever
another night alone a bottle jager on my desk
its gettin kinda late but im incapable of rest
so i start writin down these rhymes just to get shit off my chest
lately ive been chillin but been feelin mad depressed
im not a bad kid im just a rapper more or less
i got a dirty flow yeah you know who woulda guessed
i puff a little weed to relive a little stress
packin up them mids cuz i cant afford the best

smokin from the bowl is the only way to go
nobody to match so i just smoke it to my dome
spendin every night always staring at the phone
hopin for a call so i dont gotta stay at home
now Where the fuck my friends, my homies,
the only ones who really ever even fkn known me.
ill always have your back yeah thats what you told me
man that shits whack here i am smokin lonely


yeah okay ill admit that i was socially awkward
i was tryina find myself but i was lost in the crossword
i thought that i was sick i even asked to see a docter
been through alotta shit and i aint even had a father
see always switching towns kinda fucked with my brain
we were always on the move yeah ive been around the state
i was scared to go to school so id just skip it everyday
droppin out to me felt like the only escape

we moved 9 times in the course of 10 years
it was hard to keep friends and to hold in my tears
id always talk to god only hoping he hears
if there really is a god why dont he answer my prayers?
always been real because ive never been phoney
never had a girl that i could call my one and only
nah i havent seen the world. ive only chilled with my homies
i aint hear from them so for now im smokin lonely


i hate what ive become i dread these thoughts
just a glimpse of that shit puts my stomach in knots
cuz now im so fuckin sick of living in pretend
theres times where i only fuckin wished i was dead
when im alone all i think about is the end
disstress. this stress kinda fucks with my head
im thinkin bout this is now and that was then
and now maybe its time i get social again, if i can

ill try hard but its gonna be rough
been thru alotta shit you know that times been tough
the hard thing now is to turn shit around
forget all my worries, drill that shit in the ground
if i can do that then things could get better
ill even try to send my dad another letter
maybe then to my friends i would actually matter
and my family will see that im not that bad or

just anoher kid only tryina get high
cuz this song will show most of the feelings i hide
the disease, the displease that im feeling inside
and why i smoke weed or cant look in your eyes
ive said it before and ill say it again
the only thing i live for is family and friends
so think before you judge when you dont even know me
no sympathy or hugs. ill smoke this bowl lonely

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[Forsaken6994]

was good 

[bninjag]

@Forsaken6994 hey thanks man. i messed up a few times but i didnt feel like doing the whollee thing over for this low of quaility recording

[3XPLiCiTRecords]

Damn...good shit bro

[InfiniteBeatzAz]

Great song bro

[xRAGEDx1]

sounds like my life great rap man

[MASBF2PRO]

fu<kn tyt bro duno if its u but it sounds like ur puting a voice on abit emphasize but keep it real but yea nice