Multiple Sclerosis: Do not go gentle...

I am having some trouble sleeping.
I was lying in bed with the words to Dylan Thomas' "Do not go gentle into that good night"
circling my brain like a ravenous vulture (or it could be those pesky T cells).
ANYWAY, I started to see parallels between Dylan Thomas conversation with his dying father and some of the conversations I have in my own mind. (I am a wee bit introspective)
Am I going gently into total disabliliy?
or
Am I burning and raving at close of day?
Time will tell.
There is no right or wrong way to deal with your MS.
It takes as much courage to take either stance.
Calm, quiet strength as you make the most out of what you have or fierce tears of rebellion against the monster that has infiltrated our brains and attempted to steal our quality of life.
Such profound and deep thoughts for someone who would rather just let sleep take him so he can cook breakfast for his family, enjoy a day off and watch the Chicago Bears (hopefully) beat the Steelers a Soldier Field today.

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[kezzcass]

I missed this one somehow and just found it in my subs. I like that bit about curse bless me. I so understand that - I think that is a good way to say what I often find myself thinking/saying "let the pain do what it has to in me to change me and develop me and mould me." I believe that of course God is in it. There is a continual struggle between acceptance and fighting. Good vid Mark - Kerri xo

[irishbear76]

Thanks Kerri.

You see it just the way i do .

I would have to say the day it all changed for me was when i decided 'to make friends with the pain' and stop being so miserable.

Take care.

Mark

[irishbear76]

There is always some good to come from a bad circumstance.

The challenge is being able to see it.

We all are very good at seeing the bad in every situation. We focus a lot of our energy on these negative things, the hardest thing to do is to see the good in a bad situation and allow it to compel us to become better people.

People with MS have a great ability to make the best out of a bad situation.

Of course I am biased:)

[vbeachy]

Mark;

Grief and rough times brings a person closer to God. It has in my case and obviously in your case as well. James 1 2-5 comes to mind: Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

[irishbear76]

Because human beings are so stupid, willful, and stubborn, I think that sometimes God allows us to be brought to our knees, and while we are down there, we seek Him. I think that is why we are supposed to find hard times and persecutions as good things (blessings).

YOu stop worrying about what YOU are going to do about things and LET GOD IN.

If anything, MS has (from the beginning) let me know who is in charge. It is not me. It is not MS. God is the only thing that could give me perserverance.

[MsGirlOnline]

wow, you just put words to what i was feeling at the moment!

NO, I WILL NO GO GENTLE!

I will fight with all that I have, and be gentle with no part of my soul against MS!

Oh I'm pumped now! maybe I'll make a video too! lol

[irishbear76]

Maria,

I would have to say that everything I have learned about you from your videos and emails tells me that YOU WILL NOT GO GENTLE.

Keep fighting and WALKING.

Always try to remember when the rehab place put stop signs up for you and told you not to do this or that.

Now that you are with your family, you will find you are not as disabled as THEY led you to believe.

God bless you.

Take good care of yourself.

Mark

[christiandwatson]

My dad has ms :(

[valiswaverider]

Irishbear you,ve got tonnes of heart man keep battling , I have a friend with M.s it has being hard for him he was a powerlifter at Jimmy Reeves (former worlds strongest man)gym in Sheffield. I find Dylan Thomas used beutiful words I'am part welsh myself which is why I love poetry and write a bit on abctales where I have the same user name

[notapplicable66]

MS isn't just a bitch it's a real bastard as well. When I first got MS I was terrified. I was told that I should go to meetings with other people with MS. That scared the you know what out of me. Because I knew I would see other people worse off than myself and I would be seeing my own future. It has taken me a long time to get over that fear. But it was that fear that has made me determined to solve the puzzle of what MS is. So maybe something good has come out of it.

[vbeachy]

I couldn't have said it better myself.