ADHD

Your standing in the middle of a sand storm.

The winds are over 700mph, don't worry your safe from it in a protective bubble sand at that speed with rip you apart.

As you look out into the darkness of the sand storm you are shocked to see it's not sand at all flying all over...

You see that your not protected at all, those little things speeding all over are every possible thought, emotion, experience, and more... Down to the smallest detials going back to your birth... You recall as far back as 2 maybe 1 year old... Some memories are from even before that...

You have ADHD of a form that keeps ALL information in this very random and hard to grasp and follow storm of mental chaos.

You can try to get out of the storm, but it will just follow you. It will be 9,000 miles wide, as well as tall, and deep... Incase you think underground offers a way out.

It's inside of your head... It's apart of who I am as a person. I was born this way. So for me to be random, and not connected to the rest of the world was totally perfect for me.

Trying to form a single thought, follow a conversation, and or otherwise trying to be "NORMAL" is impossible for me.

Well for 35 years it was IMPOSSIBLE. And, just as hard to imagine how someone functions with this. I wonder that myself. How is it I'm where I am today?

Dumb luck really.

Well once I learned what it was I was dealing with. I read all about the many forms of it, until I discovered what type/style my form of ADHD was.

Not that we have a cookie cutter means of deiciding who has what. We can have ANY mix of ADD and or ADHD and they can change and moroh over time.

In my case it was getting much worse.

This video CAN'T replicate what I really face. It would just look like a huge sand or snow storm or all black or all white...

As in that all wavelengths of light that make light white would be the white light of all of my thoughts in a ball of white light more or less...

Black if you want to try looking into a really big dense sand storm it would be so dark that you could not even see your hand as it touched your nose.

Trying to explain it now is much easier.

Imagine a library where everything is neat and organized. With some people taking random things to make a much smaller amount of stuff to weed through...

Well if I was not in pain like I'm 24/7 at a level 8 out of 10 it would be a lirbrary where all information is accessed via digital display and not one book would be found out of place.

As people needed information instead of a book they could make a CD, FLASH thumb Drive copy, or any other digital means to transfer information paperlessly to them to use, and only what they needed.

So going beyond any library we have today combine it with the best of what we do online, and poof... Organized, and easy to access all in one.

If a book did need to be taken out, that is fine also, as tracking would be done using GPS. And, only one at a time can be taken out this way...

All of this happens as rapidly or slowly as I want it to now.

Well minus that it's a little messy and not the me in less pain way as I experienced for 5 or 6 months... Before it came back, and was made worse with a medical treatment.

But, compared to who I was before, to who I'm now... Is a full 180 degree change...

Imagine living life with a mental storm with no ability to control it. Be thankful if you don't suffer from this.

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[Scorpioladie1]

Is it just me or the video is changed?

[SpinergyDude]

@Scorpioladie1 Hi, nah, it has not changed since I first posted it. You made me watch it again to make sure it has not changed. O,o LOL Thanks for the post. :)

[88shiggles]

I take concerta to help me focus in school. I suffer from ADHD and PDD. In a struggle to pass 10th grade, I continue trying to graduate with a diploma!!!!

[SpinergyDude]

@88shiggles TY for the post, and I recall being in school O,o You are on the right path. Keep on trying, and soon you will pass, and look back and say... WOW! I did it! I should know, I was the same way in school.

[thevortex916]

i have adhd to but thanks to my depression it stays under control pretty well. ive been on adderall, ritalin, and strattera but they didnt really help much. ive been off meds for adhd for like 8 or 9 years now, maybe longer, and i aint doin to bad. im 18 by the way

[SpinergyDude]

@thevortex916 Nice to read a post like this. And, Thanks for posting also.

[SpinergyDude]

However, you do have to consider the medical industry as is with all others has people in it willing to forgo the human being in the name of "greed", "popular vote", or any number of other things that can cause people to LABEL others.

I was in 3rd grade - LABEL by Dr's, Shrinks, and others in positions of mental health.

Severely Mentally Retarded, Unable to learn, Unwilling to learn, Learning Disabled, and anti social. More had been lused on me as well. Yes, those are my LABELS on me. Go figure

[puppygirl321]

@Defor11dog I take concerta too, and while it helps in school, you have to realize maybe thats not what HE wants. ADHD isnt a bad thing, its a bonus. I have extra energy and the ability to think a thousand thoughts when most people can only process 1. I like it, look at it from a postive side too. thanks :)

[2714ness]

hey, I like theh song playing in the background. I have a 5 year old daughter who has been quite surprising to me andd how much she remembers. It's amazing , she told me where we were in Toronto when she was 2 1/2 when she had been there only once before. The bus was crowded and I could barely look out the windows. She has not had a diagnosis ...... but yah anyways.... i like your video

[hotty2366]

Hi I'm Ashley,In only 11 years old,...is it normally to have ADHD?Is it bad? And when your hyper why do youwanna walk. Cuz in class mr.k I'm I middle school I was walking around and he yelled at me to (SIT DOWN) and he mad eme cry and I ran out of room

[4hmarcie]

@SpinergyDude I wish that were true, however, we live in a society that is based on NOT helping each other and instead pulling each other's eyes out. Instead of bringing peace and helping each other, people are at each other's throats. you see that clearly happening around you every sinlge day, let's not deny it. It is so sad how petty and small people areand hoe they think they can actually win by controlling others. When will that change? Soon?

[SpinergyDude]

@MichaelADHDJackson13 LOL, Thanks for the thumbs up, and the post. :)

[SpinergyDude]

@keshdos TY for the post, now that stinks. However, I have read several decent books on the topic. All of them rather boring, but good once I read them. Check them out of the library. Look for ADD, ADHD and coping and or living with it. Some are written by people with it. And i found that that helped me tons. If that is you didn't do this before now. Thanks again for the post. :)

[SpinergyDude]

@shadowcraig2 Now that is a great question. No, actually I have never thought about this before. However, I do a live show M-Thurs and on every other SAT as I can and some Fridays, on BLOGTV dot com as AbiliTV. Where all sorts of great topics come up. ADHD is one of them at times. It's an non charity, effort to spread awareness of disAbilities of all types mental and physical, as well as lead by example what it is like to cope with them myself. Thanks for posting. :)

[SpinergyDude]

@beatsbabe TY for the kind comment. :)