Bodies as Voices.mov

The following is a compilation of the true story of my first relapse into anorexia.
The words spoken are from my actual diary,
voice actress: myself
The images are actual photographs I took of myself during the relapse.

THIS VIDEO MAY BE CONSIDERED TRIGGERING so please do not watch it unless you feel strong enough in your own recovery to do so.

If you are currently suffering from an Eating Disorder- please know that there is help available. I am here if you need someone, and don't be afraid to contact me.

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[SerenityMellissa]

this captures an eating disorder to the bones

[theSKYisCRYINGoverme]

ah! I almost forgot;

Please excuse my english, i try but i fail

good luck!!!!

[theSKYisCRYINGoverme]

Thanks!thanks because at this moment some of my damage have desapered,

i breath again! and i hope you are Living the life as each day was the last one, i wish you are getting better all the time,

[theSKYisCRYINGoverme]

i didn´t see it before...I just don´t have words to express what wonderfull it is..it´s great! I´m crying.. you have been posible explain us reality inside this unreal world, these reals feelinings...

[guaranteedgay]

You should consider publishing your diary. It's so honest and piercing. It's beautiful.

You are an inspiration.

[puffer8808]

You sound like a beautiful soul. you speak so eloquently, have you ever considered publishing a book with your poems and excerpts from your diary? there aren't very many books out there geared for ed suffers written by one. It would shine a light on this disease. It would also help ed suffers express their feelings and let them know that THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!

[chelliroo]

This made me cry. This sounds a lot like something I wrote the other night. I hope you're okay.

[aileb]

I said good-bye to it too but somehow this way of thinking and this way of being has a way of blurring the truth. I want recovery and the voice to soften but I can't seem to let this go.

[aileb]

I say good-bye to it too but somehow this way of thinking and being has a way of blurring the truth. I want to believe that this goes away and that the voices fade. I want to choose recovery but I know if I do; i'll always be looking over my shoulder and waiting for it's return.

[knevknev]

I still really don't understand it. I feel like the person who says, "Just eat something." The answer seems so simple because it's so easy for me to just eat something. I know what is LOOKS like, and what is "IS," but I still don't get what it feels like. I don't understand the psychology behind it.