Anxiety, Manic Depression, Bi Polar and friends. Part 1

So whilst watching Stephen Fry's life of the manic depressive, some of the stuff hit home and i kinda had an episode of some kinda (anxiety, mania or depression, or a combination of them all, not sure).

So i wrote down all my thoughts on paper, hopefully someone else who is trying to understand themselves will watch these vids and be able to understand themselves a bit better.

Even during this video, my mood goes from being "numb", to being a little hyper, then calming down again. Weird.

Also, my apologies for breathing down the mic so much, damn thing, i'll have to invest it a half decent one :p

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• Anxiety
• Manic
• Depression
• Bi
• Polar

[seejanefly]

My dear Boy,

You are so terribly hard on yourself! You are clearly a deep thinker, very intelligent and philosphical. Cute, too. Panic and anxiety are hell. I'm Bipolar and I have an Anxiety Disorder as well. Sometimes, all I can do is take some tranquilizers and hide under the covers till it's gone. I'm sorry you go through this too. I really understand. You should try some talk therapy. You worry me when you say you're a waste of space, and that you hate yourself. Please think about it...

[cactus57]

Well, i don't know about the cute part, but i guess i am kinda hard on myself at times. Such is the way of low self esteem i guess. Latley i've been ok, but i'm so damned touchy, if something sets me off latley i get so depressed so quickly. Panic attacks have been a pain too. But oh well, they come and they go, as does everything :)

[baalyezidi]

do u smoke weed??? i have bipolar ll.. and also anxiety, social anxiety.. and let me tell u.. it helps a lot.. when i feel that i cannot talk to anyone and that im going to explode with anger i smoke a bowl.. and calm down very good... before i was taking six pills a day.. SIX PILLS EVERY FUCKIGN DAY..

[cactus57]

I sometimes do, yeah. To be honest, it takes away my paranoia. I can't understand at all how anyone could be paranoid on it, because to me it just takes away all of that completley! It definatly helps me calm down too.

I definatly think that if i took it when i was stressed orpanicy that it could help me alot with managing it. I might have to try that out.

[MrCartoonguy]

Try not to self analyse too much...it can make you feel worse even though you think it helps. You may find yourself focusing on the label.

You are a person with a human condition.

I'm bipolar too....I have struggled with it but I've noticed that when I focused on the condition I then became withdrawn and anxious of others because I saw myself as different to the norm and sensitive to the stigma that I was re-enforcing.I became withdrawn and timid. We need to be accepted. We need to be natural.

[cactus57]

Thanks for the nice comments :) I guess yeah, when it all comes down to it most of my issues are to do with my opinion of myself. Which is bad, and i need to learn to ignore that opinion. Sure is hard though. I dunno, i think i'll get better one day, i just don't know when.

[xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx]

@baalyezidi i got stick of pills and started smoking and it did help, until i needed to find a steady job, so i cant anymore.

[augustsky1]

Someone once told me that if you are nervous about something that means you're just taking it seriously. I know that you freak out and is way bigger than just being nervous....just that when I'm reminded of that it helps me...reminds me to breathe...I was diagnosed bi-polar ....years ago....also I've found it helps me to help others...especially people that share similar problems so...keep doing this...you're on to something....and so am I.

[Subatomic1000]

There's no cure for this shit. I'm so fucking sick of living, so exhausted, people treat me like a crazy person....as they well should. Anything in my life is overshadowed by my condition which is very motherfucking real. It's ruined my life, my dreams and any hope for happiness. I'm going to fucking kill myself. It's the only way out. There is no hope so I'll abandon that too.

[iGetBackSmacked]

"dont worry, about athing,. . cause every little thing, is ganna be alright." lol

[Marinaske]

@cactus57 Smoking weed gave me paranoia/anxiety only little cases but i was doing it for so long it got to my head.. Sometimes I dont feel real. I'm a generally happy person but whenever I smoke it now it isnt the same.

[Aloxic]

lol sometimes i do the first letter in capitals and another letter inside the word in a capitals. normally multiple words in the same sentence.. but i dont do it all the time. :P

[warsuron]

i dont know what i am. hyper hyper hyper then suicidal then normal then hyper then....... oh you get the point....

seems like euforia 1 min then hell the next. wierd thought running through my head . its fucking bizzare

[TuRdSandwitch18]

it's funny, whenever im depressed it feels like i hav every reason to but whenever i see anyone else they just look like an over dramatic idiot

[richyhowat]

@iEmma1974

stop drinkin strate away makes thins better at the time but wenever you come off the booze its so much worse drugs are bad aswell i just buy vallium friom a drug dealer n take few of them from time 2 time but alcohol i would say is your main problem

[richyhowat]

just take millions of valllium everyday its amazin