In Loving Mememory.. [SPOKEN WORD POETRY]

gone, but never forgotten.. i miss you, and im sorry..

a poem i wrote about a very special person, performed near pier 69 in frisco.. so sorry if the waves got too loud for me to speak over.. also a big thanks to the camera man, Gerard Plowden..

I remember the last time I saw you
Right before you left us
You were just
Sitting in the back seat
Taking me to class
And now a few days have passed by
And I cant understand how, or why
Life is moving on without you
Like you
Somehow didnt play a big enough role in order to be forgotten
at the young age of 23, you were still innocent and lost then
even now
I still cant comprehend why god wanted you to leave
because you were putting up so much of a fight
right up until the doctors cut the life support that helped you breathe
so I broke down when I heard the news that God had finally set you free
Now you were free
From all this earthly pain and suffering
And so I continued to break down at the thoughts of my broken brother
Next to the hospital bed begging for mercy on his knees
Asking god to please bring back his angel
And my brother was never really one to believe

Now the days drag on,
Time continuously passes us by
And I still dont understand how
Are you up there??
Looking down??
Are you ashamed of what you see??
Was this the way you wanted to go??
On earth you always seemed to be so happy
But you couldnt hide your pain behind your smile
and I guess your laughter wasnt the best kind of medicine after all
I still recall receiving the txt msgs my mom sent to me
asking me if I wanted to come see you at the hospital
I never did text her back
Its not that I didnt care about u, it was just that
I couldnt deal with the fact that you were actually dying
Maybe thats why when I spoke at your memorial service, I couldnt stop crying
And I know youd tell me to keep living life, and trust me, ive been trying
but if I said I never took your presence for granted, then god knows Id be lying
and I just want to tell you that im sorry

if my words cud bring you back,
then id never stop writing
and if you were out there, in the audience
then id never stop reciting
until the room was left empty
and my tears were done drying
and it was just you
and me
and Id never stop talking
never stop asking you questions
like whats it like in heaven
but more importantly
how do you want me to tell your lifes story

Rona Zaki
Died October 4th, 2009
Left behind a lover, friends, and family
Lived her life somewhat wild and recklessly
Always smiling
Her life spoke more than a thousand words
Or a thousands poems
And though she left a thousand lives untouched
Her presence will always live on
Through us

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• beach
• def
• jam

[astarg22]

Oh my. I can barely breathe! I'm so sorry for your loss and I thank you from my soul. I'm having trouble letting go and every word you said took my breathe away!

[InfamousK82]

@astarg22 Im am so thankful that you, and everybody who posted a comment, took the time to share their personal thoughts.. i only hope that my poetry genuinely reaches those who are in need of it.. it has been one of my means to cope and escape when i need to.. I hope people are able to relate and find comfort the way i have found it through poetry.. thanks again for your words and your support..

[icemilitia]

I remember her, what she pass away from?

[InfamousK82]

@icemilitia my fault for the late reply.. shes had kidney problems since she was born.. and things just got worse the last few years.. 

[Letitiahot]

Hey, that is the most amazing peice, i love hearing it more that reading it.

I write too and listening to that ,ade me think i have a lot more to aspire to.. so ill hope to be seeing you on the next def poetry jam...... do you have facebook?

[InfamousK82]

@Letitiahot i really appreciate that.. and i kno what u mean cuz reading someones pieces might not come out the way the author intended it to.. but i do have fb.. and i do post more poems on there before i post recordings on here..

[lalarod24]

I honestly was about to cry , this is very good keep writing !

[damnmary]

I am truly touched by this, thank you. You've just expressed everything I feel but cant express about my brother. I miss him.

[oSammahh]

That was pretty deep bro you've got some talent

[LittleLulubee]

Wow, you are amazing and so talented. You have such a good, deep heart, I felt every word you said, and it brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing.

[louly111]

i truly connected with poem .its inspiring . it help me finish a poem i wrote for my dad ..so thank you

[hockbb61]

What she order fish filet. beaner chank. millions of em.

[Huglife8940]

Wow this is amazing... I went through something similar when I lost my sister I couldn't see her die or even after she had passed away but when I spoke at her funeral I could not handle it had to be held up by my brothers for I could not feel my legs. I would just like to say thanks for sharing your pain with me.

[GOTHGAM08]

OMG, you performed this in Summer's class. This one, and I'm speaking for everyone who was in that class, brought us all to tears. You are so talented and hold so much emotion in your words that I wish I could bring in my poetry. Brilliant.

[ApacheLife5465]

Thanks for this. That was deep. I recently lost my cousin and everyday I think of her. Thanks.

[sudaniq]

Im so touched by this! Keep writing and so so sorry for your loss.

[CalStateAdventures]

one word...BEAUTIFUL! :)