I've been doing a little more sparring these days, usually a couple times a month. As always, it's incredibly frustrating to see myself on video. I look so slow, so inflexible, so flustered.
Mark says I'm getting better, though. I looked back at the last sparring video I posted (http://mindtangle.net/2009/03/18/sparring-with-mark/) and the differences are subtle. My core seems more stable. I'm less perturbed when I get hit. Also, some of my strikes are getting longer. Good form means my attacking side opens way up, while the other side stays tight in a guard. I see some of that.
But gah, what a mess...
Honestly really doesn't look that bad dude, no need to beat yourself up over it, its sparring :)
You might want to try and circle around when you're getting pressured (Easier said than done, I'm guilty of backing up too much when I get flurried as well)
chr9is 2 years ago