The last song I'm wasting on you, Xion

You'll never hurt me again
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The last time I saw you, the snow was slowly falling down to the ground
You where waiting for your bus, just like I was waiting for mine.
I looked into your blue green eyes and forced out a weak smile

-"Hi... It's been a long time... How are you?"
-"None of your concern."

You looked at me with that cold look again.
Like I'm nothing more than dirt. It's almost as if you see right through me.
Maybe you don't even recognize me anymore?
I wouldn't blame you though.. I've changed a lot.

I talked to someone about our "friendship".
She stared at me like I was an idiot and wondered why I even cared about you in the first place.
Back in they days when you where my friend, you where kinda all I had.
You where the only one who ever tried to protect me.
But that had it's price I guess..

I think you might be just as broken as I am.. If not even worse.
But unlike me, you direct all of your hurt and anger on the people around you.
I used to have the bruises and wounds to prove it.
How many times haven't you wrestled me down to the ground for a beat-up?
How many times haven't I done the same to you?

There's something about you.. Something I can't figure out
I guess that's why I felt drawn to you.
But now I realize that you where not really good to me from the start.
Then again, I do miss being your punching bag.
You used to live in the moment and take chances
Breaking the rules and jumping off rooftops. It made me feel alive.
The years I spent alone drifting around as a zombie, the thought that you might come back to save me was what I held on to.

But no more. I just can't take it.
I'm tired of always trying to reach you, always keeping a door open for you to come back.
This was made for my sake - not yours.
I know you won't see this since you don't like videos like this.
And even if you did see it you wouldn't know it's me
Even if I told you I made it, you wouldn't believe me.

I now have real friends who truly love me. I wouldn't change it for the world
They give me a smack on the head whenever I wage wars on myself.
And without you I'm doing better than ever, even though I'm far from being ok I guess.
I see different colors these days too - have they always been there?

Whatever it is that your eyes are hiding I guess it's your problem
I can't save you if you don't let me.
But one thing's for sure, you'll never hurt me again.
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Song:
The Last Song I'm Wasting On You

Artist:
Evanescence

Lyrics:
Sparkling grey
They're my own veins

Any more than a whisper
Any sudden movement of my heart
And I know
I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day

Give up your way
You could be anything
Give up my way
And lose myself

Not today
That's too much guilt to pay

Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know
You know I'd never hurt you that way

You're just so pretty in your pain

Give up my way
And I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless
Hate
Hate
Hate
Hate

So run
Run
Run
And hate me
If it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out

And you'll never hurt me again

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Tags:

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• Xion
• RoxasxXion
• 358/2 days
• Evanescence
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• 13LadyInRed13

[livetheifson]

I'm not going to lie the same thing has happened to me, recently too, and watching this and reading the description almost made me cry, and not trying to sound all macho, but I don't really cry much

[3LadyInRed3]

@livetheifson Aww things like this shouldn't happen to anyone.. I'm here if you need someone to talk to

[livetheifson]

@3LadyInRed3 i've gotten past it, i didnt lose too much, they lost a a reliable friend, they wanna throw that away to be sloppy seconds, fine, they are dating my ex, and she is quite psychotic, haha, still trying to get me to take her back

[3LadyInRed3]

@livetheifson Ahhh I see.. Well it's good that you've gotten over them ^^

[livetheifson]

@3LadyInRed3 yeah, and im gonna laugh if they ever come back and try to be friends again

[Kingdomhearts120]

Oh god, your videos are so beautiful. ;_;

I know this is going to sound cheesy and selfish but I know exactly how you feel...

[DaJoord]

emma bueatifull vid ... the description seemed very sad ... we haven't been speaking much to each other latley been very busy but if you need a listing ear i'm there for you girl