The next morning I woke up to the harsh, penetrating, sunrays blinding me. I squeezed my eyes shut, I tried to shield my eyes with my arm, but the movement made my whole body rocket to pain. I whimpered and rolled onto my side. Crawling away from him. He was asleep, thank god. And it looked like he wasn't waking up anytime soon. I stood up, and my face twisted in pain. I pushed myself forward, right foot forward, step, left foot forward, step... until I reached the bathroom. I shut the door and locked it.
I turned the red shower tap and stepped inside. The hot water droplets burned my skin, making it a light cherry color. I washed the blood from my scalp, forehead and cheek. I softly ran my fingertips along my neck, I looked down at the right side of it. There was a light purple hickey there. I squeezed my eyes shut, suddenly memories from Nick being gentle and kind came to my mind, making my body go through a fit of sobs. My shoulders shaked from the emotional pain, tearing my heart in two. I was never going to escape, I still loved him. I was expecting for him to come back. The one I loved. But the one I loved was a fake. He has now shown his true colors. I crawl into a ball in the corner of the shower. Wrapping my skinny and pink arms around my legs, squeezing my body into a stiff ball, crying. The tears were like a waterfall, running down my face. But they were camouflaged with the harsh, hot water droplets spraying on me.
After about 20 minutes of crying in the shower, I stood up and turned the dial so that the shower stopped running water. I stepped quietly out of the shower, not shedding another tear. I think I've already cried them all. My life was the definition of pain. I've probably been crying my whole life. The playground kids bullying me. My mom dying in a car crash. My uncle touching me in my most intimate parts...
I blocked out all of those memories and focused on nothing. Just staring at the fogged mirror. I wiped the fog with my right hand, my reflection was staring. Slowly, water droplets ran down my image in rivulets, smearing my reflection.
I took a towel from the cupboard and dried the wet stickiness off my body. I walked out of the bathroom and tiptoed into Nick and I's bedroom. I rummaged through the wardrobe slowly, not really paying attention. Just staring off to the distance, stuck in a daydream of nothingness. I pulled on a navy blue short-sleeved shirt, black skinny jeans, and Winnie the Poo socks I had gotten from my mother when I was only five years old. I wiggled my toes, staring at them, with the memory.
I walked out of our bedroom and stepped over Nick's body and carefully stepped into the kitchen. I poured myself a bowl of Cheerios and slowly watched the milk make the little circles of food float to the top, like buoyants. I grabbed a spoon from the drawer and put it in my bowl, walking to the couch. I ate in silence. I fidgeted with my food, biting my bottom lip at some of my painful memories. I didn't want to cry again, not if Nick was going to wake up.
Slowly my memories shifted to the happy. My mother smiling, hugging me. Her long flowing hair falling over my small back whenever she would hug me. Her singing me to sleep. A lullaby that I didn't even bother to remember, I thought I would have more time to. But she died to fast. I quickly went back to the happy memories. My mother singing me to sleep, my dad baking chocolate chip pancakes every Sunday, my dad tickling me until I was on the floor, my dad blowing raspberries into my belly when he lifted me high in the air, when I was little.
My dad....
He was the only one that might make me feel better. I'm glad he didn't die. He hasn't left me yet.
He's the only one left in this world that still loves me....
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Broken Heart ; 4by bostickrocks1234121 views
My heart aches for Selena. Nick why do you have to break her heart even more? She's been through enough suffering. :(
xsurrendertolove 1 month ago in playlist More videos from bostickrocks1234
i'm dying for this story already! :)
sunsetlovex 8 months ago
Poor Selena :(
Beautifully written :)
JustinB5988 8 months ago
omg, this is soo sad. :(
amazing <3
iNataliexo 8 months ago
Aw. Poor Selly! And omg i love you're writing Sarah! It's so beautiful and descriptive. Amazing. I cant wait for the next chapter!! :D <3
conversecutie121 8 months ago
aw poor sel
nickjerryjonasluvr11 8 months ago