Kander- A letter from Sullivan Ballou

Renée Fleming live,Warren Jones, 1994

July 14, 1861
Camp Clark, Washington

"My very dear Sarah:
The indications are very strong that we shall move in a few days—perhaps tomorrow. Lest I should not be able to write again, I feel impelled to write a few lines that may fall under your eye when I shall be no more . . .

I have no misgivings about, or lack of confidence in the cause in which I am engaged, and my courage does not halt or falter. I know how strongly American Civilization now leans on the triumph of the Government and how great a debt we owe to those who went before us through the blood and sufferings of the Revolution. And I am willing—perfectly willing—to lay down all my joys in this life, to help maintain this Government, and to pay that debt . . .

Sarah my love for you is deathless, it seems to bind me with mighty cables that nothing but Omnipotence could break; and yet my love of Country comes over me like a strong wind and bears me unresistibly on with all these chains to the battle field.

The memories of the blissful moments I have spent with you come creeping over me, and I feel most gratified to God and to you that I have enjoyed them for so long. And hard it is for me to give them up and burn to ashes the hopes of future years, when, God willing, we might still have lived and loved together, and seen our sons grown up to honorable manhood, around us. I have, I know, but few and small claims upon Divine Providence, but something whispers to me—perhaps it is the wafted prayer of my little Edgar, that I shall return to my loved ones unharmed. If I do not my dear Sarah, never forget how much I love you, and when my last breath escapes me on the battle field, it will whisper your name. Forgive my many faults and the many pains I have caused you. How thoughtless and foolish I have often times been! How gladly would I wash out with my tears every little spot upon your happiness . . .

But, oh Sarah! If the dead can come back to this earth and flit unseen around those they loved, I shall always be near you; in the gladdest days and in the darkest nights . . . always, always, and if there be a soft breeze upon your cheek, it shall be my breath, as the cool air fans your throbbing temple, it shall be my spirit passing by.

Sarah do not mourn me dead; think I am gone and wait for thee, for we shall meet again . . ."

Sullivan Ballou was killed a week later at the first Battle of Bull Run, July 21, 1861.

Born March 28, 1829 , when he died, his wife was 24. She later moved to New Jersey to live out her life with her son, William, and never re-married. She died at age 80 in 1917.
Ironically, Sullivan Ballou's letter was never mailed. Although Sarah would receive other, decidedly more upbeat letters, dated after the now-famous letter from the battlefield, the letter in question would be found among Sullivan Ballou's effects when Gov. William Sprague of Rhode Island traveled to Virginia to retrieve the remains of his state's sons who had fallen in battle.

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[Singinganneke]

I thank God every day to have created this person....

[opmaus]

@HK271 The way I look at it, she is the wife reading the letter - that's what makes it more heart-breaking, to think that she didn't actually read this before he died.

[ellethelvanui]

The 3 people who clicked 'thumbs down' to this have no soul.

[Zeus1028]

What a gorgeous piece, performer and performance! Fleming is truly astounding. I recently performed this in California at the 2011 OperaWorks Emerging Artist program. I am a baritone and performed the piece from the perspective of Sullivan Ballou. Visit my page to check it out!

[5050zulu1]

I think the letter is the most beautiful love letter I have ever heard . But this is just dreadful I hate it just dreadful

[lungdoc]

@pmdane Thanks for your comments.

[meltzerboy]

@meltzerboy Correction: it was performed in 1994.

[meltzerboy]

@roseolla It was Marilyn Horne's 60th birthday; I still remember it.

[meltzerboy]

@lungdoc I was there too, and, as far as I'm concerned, this piece was the most touching and most beautifully sung selection on the program. It was in 1993 and I remember wondering who is this fabulous singer?

[MissJennySmiles]

Oh I love this piece!! I saw her perform this in Mississippi. I cried!