Last night got a little crazy
I dont remember, woke up spun with the pasties
My friends say I was tweaked out,
Passed out on a dirty coach, still in the house
It kind a scares me, I dont know
Am out of control, always waking up still in my clothes
I wrote a note that said goodbye to pain, good bye to shame
But couldnt find a way, I just cry for days
Im so depressed, soak in wet, I cant rest
These thoughts just beat me to death Im un-kept
I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church
But its been so long I cant remember the words
Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you
Every time you run
I keep sleeping in dont want to wake up
I keep hearing from the landlord pay up
Hide my face in my pillow till the sunsets
Hung over and I havent seen a pay check
I took a job downtown at the factory
I was hired and fired with no salary
I keep running from responsibility
Its seems impossible, the pressure is hitting me
I know I need to man up, or sit down
Stand up and get out of this crowd
I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church
But its been so long I cant remember the words
Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you
Well I know Im not ready to die, But Ive
Sure thought about the meaning of life
Cause I cant seem to find a purpose for me
Its just the choices and I fail to proceed
I got a get up, get up, get up, get up
Get up, get up, get up, get up, get up
I hear voices in my mind, ones a devil, ones Jesus
I can feel it can you help me find the pieces
Like an angel on my shoulder, you hold the
Joy of the lord raising up a soldier
You gave me the song my mom used to sing in church
I promised not to quit and I remembered the words
I promised not to quit and I remembered the words
Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you
A couple days ago, I was having a horrible day, and I was completely depressed. I was eating lunch alone in my car at school, and a guy parked next to me, with this song blasting from his truck. God was telling me that He was right there with me at my lowest point. It turned my entire day around. God is so great.
superzack101 3 months ago 92
Since I was 13, I've been battling depression and suicide. There have been times where I have felt utterly empty for so long, waking up every day just wanting to die. I've been a cutter, written goodbye letters and tried to end it all, but couldn't. Now i'm about to turn 22 and about to graduate with a Bachelor's degree in Nursing. This past summer I made really big strides and came out of those dark places. It was only because of God. He heals wounds. He heals hearts. He heals lives. He loves<3
1CraigRoper1 3 months ago 57