Our World - DID Style

These are just pictures as representations of the ones who are inside us. You will see puzzle pieces throughout and they represent the individual pieces that make up me. These are only pictures those inside relate to. I may change this some other time cause I can't seem to get a song that really fits, but this is the best I could do for now. Just a look into my world.

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People & Blogs

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• DID/MPD
• DID
• dissociation
• multiple
• personality
• disorder

[thepeoplearecrazy101]

stay strong... ive been there

[multiversedancer]

Thank you for sharing. I'm about to work on a video myself. Many blessings in your healing. Please look into "Waking The Tiger" by Peter Levine if you haven't done so already. Somatic Experiencing is a life saver!

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa The anger is because I'm married to my abuser and have been for 20 years. He was a friend of my uncle and is 17 years older than me. I can't get away no matter how hard I try. I spend my days in my bedroom alone but lucky to have internet, otherwise, I'd have no outlets at all. My anti social alter wants to do him in but I keep it check. Sounds weird I know.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos i'm glad your trying to do things to redirect the anger. communication is a big thing. finding out why they are angry and doing something that will ease that anger.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa Yeah I really good at that one. I have many scars. I've also overdosed unknowingly, had a two day black out where I was told I drove my car and road my bike around the neighborhood. My daughter gave me a gift I knew nothing about so I was double surprised. I still can't believe it. I have my husband lock any dangerous pills away now cause I'm afraid I'll overdose when I wouldn't want to do that.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa Yeah I already do that. I keep a mood journal. I paint, write songs, and break things if I must. I always direct my anger away from my loved ones. I'm the one who gets hurt.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos internalized abuser means more like self harm and self destruction.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos what's important is finding a way to release that rage in a more constructive non-abusive way. for us sometimes it helps to just color. for A red is anger and A will color a whole sheet of paper in red then sometimes covers the red with black which i don't suggest because that is as if you are covering your anger when really you need to work co-conciously with your angry part/parts to feel that anger. it's an overwhelming feeling, but can be felt.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa That sounds like me but I fear that part of me because of the intense rage that I sometimes can't control. I feel really bad about things I said or did and I wrestle against this. Tell me about the internalized abuser. Does A say mean things at times to hurt you? Or say things about your loved ones to distress you?

I wouldn't normally hurt anyone. I hurt myself way more. I'm unable to get any help because I'm sick of dealing with the abuses of the system. They try to give me drugs.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos my anti-social part is a protector but also an internalized abuser. A protects me against other people being mean, but A can be as mean as it wants to be to me or the others in the system. But A wouldn't actually hurt someone on the outside unless it was a dangerous situation. a real dangerous situation not a perceived threat. now granted A will go off on someone if A feels threatened, but not actually physically hurt someone.