Beyond the Window

Posted courtesy of Marissa Delbressine from http://www.youtube.com/user/Ealynn , the maker of this wonderful short film.

BEYOND THE WINDOW kind of depicts in symbolical and wonderfully poetic ways what has happened here between me and a young YouTuber named Kel (short for Kelvin) via YouTube, between February and April 2009 ...

Kel and I met by happenstance; he mistakenly wrote a comment in my channel. I wrote him a message back, not knowing whether I had somewhat offended him without knowing, or whether I could help him with something. He wrote back and apologized for his mistake. I replied to him that all was fine and thanked him for his polite answer. That was it at first.

Short of two weeks later, Kel returned with a message, asking me to help him find the channel of a YouTube friend who's contact he had lost. I failed to do so, but in the process, Kel began to tell me about why he was searching for this friend; I asked a question or two about things I did not understand, we got to talking ... and by that, a contact between two persons started evolving that took us on a journey to beautiful spots as well as to dreadfully saddening and downright dangerous places.

I came to become an influence in Kel's life; someone who listened to him, who also felt what he said, who thought about it and then answered.

And there was lots of things going on in Kel's life; most of them, at that time, indeed, painful, strenuous, saddening, like being bullied at school every day.

Some of these things, though, also wonderful and downright hilarious.

We shared many of these things, and I did all I could - by building up self-esteem in Kel, by boosting his courage and make him see that even the weak are not entirely helpless, and even the lonely are not really alone.

We've accomplished a lot together, Kel and I. He had a good life ahead of him, that of I was sure, and so was he. Though not without problems, the prospects were good, and he saw his chances ...

But a tragic accident (to say the least!) ended the life of Kel, before he could make this fresh start that he was about to venture.

It is so terrible what happened ... It broke me, left me completely crushed and literally not knowing how to move on.

And yet - every the saddest ending to something may bear some saplings of something good ... if you are able to find out where to look within yourself, to make that happen.

I have found these things in me, although I had to work myself through the debris that was left of my heart, after Kel died, and the smoldering ashes of my belief that life is good.

It started by making this channel, on the very day after Kel's death. It became my lifeline on this day. I am not kidding. And, by putting the channel together, bit by bit during the days that followed, something was set into motion - not planned by me, and without agenda or goals.

I found things, and I know now how to carry on. I found things that are worth pursuing, and these things originate in Kel, receive their energy from all the loads of experiences I had and made with him, and these things will make a difference, even if it is just a small one.

Kel's death was an outrageous, tragic and unnecessary loss. But he will live on, and Kel's message will be heard.

As Kel would say:

We'll make it. You'll see.

--Truedantalion
aka Michael
aka mic

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[thatsjustmytech]

very touching...amazing video

[kelvinwontcry2]

@thatsjustmytech

Thank you for watching ... It was the most wonderful upload to start this channel with, and I will be forever grateful to the artist who made it, for giving me permission.

[Roybraham]

Really beautiful MIchael, well done! Roy.

[kelvinwontcry2]

@Roybraham

Thank you for watching, Roy. All credit for this wonderful short movie goes to Marissa, and I am so grateful that she gave me permission to upload her work to this channel.

[jackisbff]

That is so sad, but so nice of you!!! :(

[kelvinwontcry2]

@jackisbff

Thank you so much for watching, Jordan!

I made this channel to keep the memory of Kel alive. No one has the chance anymore to really meet him, and to find out what a nice guy he was: Funny, witty, courageous, and what a great heart he had - caring for others when they did not feel good, because he knew exactly how that felt, and trying to help.

I really have been blessed knowing him, even if it was only for a short time. And I want to pass on a bit of that here on this channel.

[ifeelalone11]

always remember :) wish could of met kelvin :(

[laserbeam1295]

This video is too sad for me to watch. I remember seeing Cory cry when he talked about Kelvin. All I can say is that who ever knew Kelvin has been given a gift and it's a gift that I wish I can have but I never can.

[thatsjustmytech]

@kelvinwontcry2 welcome :)

[kelvinwontcry2]

@walkingdan

It is a wonderful short movie, and I was so happy when the maker of it gave me approval to upload her work to this channel, because it held so much, in symbolical ways, of what was vital in the relation between Kel and me. Beyond that, it has so much meaning for everyone of us, whether indeed physically handicapped, or even burdened down by things that weigh on your soul and hinder you to live up to your full potential.

Thank you so much for watching, and for your wonderful comment

[walkingdan]

This video and music is so peaceful, seeing a wheelchair bounded child freed from his confinement is so emotional. I think this must be in every severely physically intellectually disabled child dream; to be able to do thing without limitation and judgments! Thank you for sharing this wonderful video. Kelvinwontcry2, Truedantalion, and the creator of this video. This put a real life meaning behind this video. Kevin will never be forgotten; everyone has a value on this universe.

[kelvinwontcry2]

@Samybaby2010

Liebe Lena, auf diesen netten Comment muss ich ganz einfach auf Englisch antworten, denn auf Deutsch würde es einfach nur "bitteschön" heißen - aber was ich eigentlich sagen will, ist das, was im Englischen hierfür gesagt wird:

You're welcome :-)!

~Michael