;and you were left feeling so, a l o n e .

Tanner. Wow. You left me more than 5 months ago.
Seriously, guys I really did love this horse. He was so talented and was going to be such an amazing horse. And like it says in the song "I've broken all my promises to you", I really did. I promised him I wouldn't give up on him. I promised him that he'd stay happy with me, and that I wouldn't let him get hurt again. But I didn't keep my promises. I gave up on him. I didn't give him the chance to stay with me. I let him go back to where he wasn't always happy. And I won't forgive myself for that.
You guys can't really understand the bond that we shared in such a short period of time. Ask anyone that saw us together. He loved me, and I loved him. I was going to make him the best I possibly could, and he was always so willing. I'll never forget the day that he left. We went and dropped him off and the look in his eyes was so heartbreaking. It was there, everything that I promised him and never kept. I couldn't stop crying. He was my baby boy.
And I know you guys are probably wondering why I didn't go back and get him. Or why i didn't keep him in the first place. And it was because he scared me. He reared at least 7 times in a row, and that just wasn't safe for me. You might think I don't love him, and that if I really did I wouldn't have gave up. But I did love him, that's why I had to tell him goodbye. I didn't want to grow to not love him anymore, or be anymore scared of him than I was.
So, here is to my "Tanner Banner". My happy little boy that was always ecstatic to see me. My little boy that I didn't keep my promises to, but I gave him a short period time full of never stopping love. I miss you little boy. I won't forget the fun and love we shared. You were going to be incredible.

Also, I asked his owner about him and he was sent to a trail home. So, I have absolutely no idea where he is. Or if I will ever see him again.

Kudos to you if you read all of that.

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[NoHorseShouldSuffer]

Im sorry for your loss, i know how you feel. I used to see that look in Dakotas eyes, that same exact look, when he was at the other stable. I had promised him he wouldn't suffer anymore, and that he'd be happy with me, but he wasn't. He suffered. He suffered, and I didn't do anything about it, until last year. He was scrawny and starved, poisoned, and diseased, three out of his five years of life. Now he's moved, and healthy, but i will never forget that look. I hope you see your tanner again.

[Fletchersbaby77]

Thanks. I'm sorry ): That's good though (: Me too.

[MissEquestrian11]

i understand i read your description sometimes my horse scares me but i just decided to work through all those problems and keep trying but thats just me:)

[Fletchersbaby77]

Well, me and my trainers both decided he was way too dangerous to do what I need to do. And now I have Teddy, and he's my baby boy. (:

[imacowgirl4ever]

this video was absolutely astonishing. I'm so sorry that this happened, but I understand why you did what you did, and I probably would have too. I really hope that you find him again one day (if that is of course what you want).

[Fletchersbaby77]

Thanks (: I just want to find him because I want see him

[NoHorseShouldSuffer]

@Fletchersbaby77 Yeah, we have our first show together (and his first show ever) this sunday ^^

[Fletchersbaby77]

Thanks May. It really means alot. You do understand completely what I've been through :/